Mistakes

What I like about teaching is the mistakes that I have made along the way . Why ? I have 18 students in my class and each time when I write the wrong date or day , they will immediately correct me .

I do not know why , some teachers do like to be corrected by their students at all . I do not find it offensive , they are merely correcting you to make sure that you know what you are doing and it's okay .

I know some teachers would scold thier students for correcting them . I find this really dumb . Why ? Just because we are teachers , no one can correct us ? No , it's really okay . Poor kids get an earful if they were to correct their teachers .


When my students correct me, I feel proud , because I know that they are attentive in class . That is what I look for in a class . Not to get the first position in class but all the small little stuff.... I am sure you know what I mean .

WHat am I saying ?

I have always believed that God loves all of us for a reason and that ,HE is always right behind us to give us that extra push.

Eventhough, when I feel like giving up , HE would always be there for me,reaching out to me and ever ready to catch me when I fall. HE has been with me throught thick and thin and HIS love for all of us is universal.I believe that a good deed done will be repaid in full .


Blessings are abundant in my home. With the love of my parents for us girls, growing up has been very calm for me and my sister .We were taught to pray at a very young age. I remember slipping up my Hail Marys and that never stopped me . My mum would make it a point to pray the rosary every Sundays at home and , she would teach us how to say the rosary and even introduced to us new prayes and important ones as well.


We prayed as a family when ever we could , life has been very kind to us and it has brought us close together as a family. From there , we were taught to read the gospel readings , when we went round for rosaries , to other people's houses .

It was simple back then , and the youths in our time were very prayerfull too. We had our moments of parties too , but when it came to prayers , we were number one .


That was then .....


Now.... we do still say the rosary and my sister will say it with her family .We have been faitfull to the LORD .

The youths of today ;
Do not pray,
Do not bring rosary but instead count with their fingers when praying,
Shake legs when praying ,
Talk, giggle and shout when praying,
No respect for the prayer which has been taught to them,
Say prayers for the sake of saying it,
Wears bling blings and compare bling blings during prayer time,
Bring handphones along and leave in between prayers to answer a call,

So where do we go from here ?
It breaks my heart to see, but then again who am I to complain ......

i push myself because.....

i like to simply do it .

i just wanna show off to everyone that i can do it ,

i must prove to everyone that i live for pressure and i need to feel that rush surging through my body ,

i am insane and what ever i do , everyone must be aware of it ,

i am the only one who could do the job well ,

i cannot count on others,

i am the most important being in the universe,

i must always and always prove to others that i am right and the rightous will live long lives ,

i hate the fact that i have to redo and correct other people's mistakes ,


Okay , this is not a hate post or note , it is something just needs to be said . Why I push myself is because I need to simply test myself to just make sure that I can do it .

Api !!! Api!!! FIRE!!!!

Today being a public holiday and all,we decided to wake up late but instead,we woke up at 7 am . Used to it. Old habits die hard .


Mum made vege fritters,sat down to eat and me as usual with the computer . TMK was online, chatting and chatting away, we talked about baju kurung and how it would be nice if we could all wear it for the last day of school.


.............. suddenly api !!!!!!!!!!! api!!! ,'semua keluar'!!!!!!!!!!!!! So without telling TMK anything , I switched off everything and went down with my mum .Dad being dad , dia sudah turun mau pergi check on the situation.We went down , everyone was busy removing thier cars , children crying , waited abt 10 mins then the fire brigade arrived , then another one arrived after another ten minutes the third fire brigade came .


It seemed a gas cylinder exploded . Luckily no one was hurt.Everything is back to normal now , we stayed here for 4 years and this is the first time .First time for everything you might say ..

Reverse

Not reverse everything but this happpened as I was leaving to attend a principal's meeting.Thought I'd leave a little early and have a nice drive to BRP . With all of the oil tankers and huge lorries , wading inbetween my BMW!!!


So,as I was about to leave , I said goodbye to the kids and headed on to the next building where my car was parked. As I got there, a bunch of kids were waiting for thier transport .. not only that they stuck a sticker to my car , my car has become one of their playing objects... running aroung the car !!!

My teacher kindly open the gates so that I could reverse out my car and as I was about to enter ,into the car , this was what I heard ;

NSI : Eh , tr nak balik.
HR : Bukanlah , dia nak pergi meeting .


TR J : Okay , semua lalu , duduk sana tr Audra mahu keluar.

NSI to a friend : Cepat, awak , lalu nanti tr Audra reverse boleh mati kalau kena!!

Morning has broken and silence has gone

Nilly came to school today and she was not her usual self . She looked a little sad .Yesterday, I was told that her sister was stung by a jelly fish while having fun on a jet ski.

I could tell that she really cares for her sisiter,so I decided to ask her how was her sister doing ;


Me :Nilly , kakak awak sihat ke ?
N :Kakak saya kena sengat dengan obor - obor teacher .

She looked so sad.

Me :Macam mana dia kena ?
N :Entahlah , teacher dia main jet ski,tiba-tiba dia nangis, dia kata sakit.
mak saya cube rendamkan dia dalam satu pantai , teacher !!
ME : Ha, rendam ?
N :Ha, teacher ambulans dah standby .



.....and with that out from her mouth, she was her old self again .. Nilly will always be NIlly .

All Quiet Now

It was very quiet in school today because Nilly was absent and I am so used to having her prancing around in class . It was not the same and it did not feel right at all.

The worst is, today is exam week. I got down to business and told the kids that we were going to do our Cultural paper . That , was like kacang to them and they finished everything within 20 mins and then ..... they started to talk and soon the whole class sounded like a market !!!!

Soon it was time to do their math paper and I have been recapping with them the whole time and some even had the nerve to say how bored they were and that I should stop recapping altogehther because they know how to attempt the math activities . Fine ...


And suddenly;

OWS : Teacher , how to do ?
Me : What ?
OWS : How to do ?
Me : OWS , I have been teaching you for the past two weeks and you said nothing and
now, how to do ?
Me : That's it everyone zip your mouth and start doing your paper.


OWS was very sad . And I made DE cry in class today because she did not know how to do her addition within 50. But I helped her in the end .......

Well , more of it tomorrow .

Isaiah My Angel

My angel whispered to me and left . I understand .Isaiah has been with me for a long time now.From the first time we met , I knew that our friendship would be a lasting one .. until the day I die .

Isaiah is no ordinary angel , he does not posess any powers but he gives comfort to those who needs it.I was always proud of Isiah.

The tales that he use to tell me were wonderful tales.Sometimes , he would be gone for days and the longest was 5 years. When he got back,I asked him what took him so long to return ? He would always tell me that he never left me, and that it was I who kept silent for too long.

With a smile, he would reasure me that he never left me and I, on the other hand must make it a point to call on him.One day a little girl lay sick in bed,and her mama was worried.


I looked for Isaiah high and low.When I found him , he was busy reading ... I told him that he was needed and that he needs to go over to this little girl's home to give her some comfort. I sent him straighaway, I told him do not return to me until she is out of the woods. Go ! Comfort her and be with her.

It has only been the first day ... maybe tonight he will come but not until she is well. Perhaps Isaiah will have some good news for me tonight .Whatever it is , I will lay and wait for Isaiah to come ... he never fails me .

Confidential and trust

What does the word , confidential means to you ? For me,it's a word that I know, if someone were to tell me something confidential , I must keep it , whatever that I heard and not tell anyone .

It leads to trust eventually and you become a trustworthy friend , sister or brother. Like the saying goes if I am not mistaken , biar pecah ke dalam perut sahaja . Or better still bawa sampai ke kubur .

For me trust is something that you cannot buy and that you have to earn it. I take trust ( the word ) very seriously.

It is hard to trust anyone . But at times we all need to talk to someone and when we feel helpless, that is the time we may say many things that we don't simply mean and people jump to the wrong conclusion . You may find yourself in hot soup.



What do you do to get away from this ? Easy, just don't talk at all. But humans need to talk. If we don't talk , how ?

All I know is , we have to be on guard and say only what needs to be said . So trust is a dear friend to me and let's move along and forget what has been said .

Faith

Today in church , we had a sharing by the RCIA participants . What got me listening to ,was when the candidate said that she did not believe in God because she had no faith and now after attending the RCIA she knows the truth that god does exist in some little way because she had faith .


I was upset yesterday because my faith was ofline , to me I guess it's normal . For some reason , I was upset and I said all kinds of things. And I did not care . But I do care ... ( this care bug came in after I let off steam infront of my mum ) . To tell you the truth , I really felt like a huge lump just left my chest. I got it all out .

Yes,my faith in my friend was ofline because of what I saw that made me so sad .It's okay I kept telling myself. Then I thought hard about my faith and how saw I was . I then thought of Jesus dying on the cross for me and my sins . He had it worse , nails, thorns , whipped and he was left to die because of me .

The pain that HE endured was far more worse than what I felt .By comparison what I felt was nothing . It was just a small matter and I made it into a big thing .So I know now that whatever happens , I have people who love me all around . What Jesus did was far more harder.

So am I going to give up without a fight ? NEVER and I am here to stay, for I will look to the heavens and hence my help shall come .

It Ain't Heavy , It's my makan

As usual,the time has come that my dad receives his monthly pension. And... once again the three of us would go shopping for our monthly groceries ... and we do have a nice time walking in Tesco . Along they way , usually we would bump into friends , old friends , aunties , uncles , grandpas , grandmas , cousins , godsisters and brothers and yes, the list just goes on and on.


Each time when we go, we will split into three groups and also we try to outdo each other to see who can carry the most barang !!! Also along the way again , we have all of the shoppers cheering for us .. ha! ha!


Moving along , until the counter , everything will be okay until.....
We forgot something and we have to go all the way to get it,
Someone in line had no money,
Another someone wants to jump the queue,
A little boy sreaming his head off.....


How we tahan and trod along .Then it comes to our turn at the check out counter and ABRACADABRA !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We are done

Time to get home . On the way , we stop for lunch and this is the time when my mum will start to count the stairs to our appartment.That is when I go .. OH NO !!! Because we have to carry two bags each up .


So up we went , till this jiran of us saw us struggling ,and she just took the two bags like as if it weighs like nothing and up she went to the 4th floor!!!!

Thank you and terima kasih kerana menolong .She actually does'nt mind helping us because her cats will always sleep at our front door and the next morning , dad will carry it downstairs for her .....

The Best Deal

Danish .
Highly intelligent.
Smart / Smary pants of the class.
Language , vocab and writing skills - Excellent .
Likes to talk , make sense of everything and very good in solving class politics.
He's the guy that everyone goes to .


Today , as I sat thinking about exams , I got up and told my class that instead of recapping all the time , we were going to colour all of the flags in the Cultural book . They had about two pages to colour.As I was rambling along and on and on I went, the kids got excited because , no recapping today .


With everything being said and done ,we all heard an important announcement from Danish .

Danish : Everyone you can use my colours to colour your flags , even the the girls.

Wow !I thought to myself so generous . Nice boy . Then there was more ..

Danish : I am willing to charge you all Rm 15.00 to use my colours . That is the
best discount that I can offer .

I wanted to laugh actually . Business deals at a very young age !!!!!

Merajuk 101

After 5 long months , today was the first day Nilly merajuk .. Why ? It was all because of me . She is like a lost puppy. Everywhere I go , she will be right behind me .
I do not know from where she gets her energy . She never feels tired . Words and more words are constantly coming out of her mouth .... words of songs .. wisdom ? That is another question .



So anyway , I have been observeing her , it all stared after the sports day . Today is the fourth day ... no .. can't be . Third day because Monday was a holiday . Each time , when I go out to attend to a parent , she'd follow along .. and when everything is over , I noticed that she would sing the Ngaraku and then recite the Rukunegara . Without fail for three days .

She invites other friends along too . what I did today was so horrible to her that whatever browine points that I earned from her ,it all went in to the drain .. I locked her out ...



Me : Tmk , someone merajuk today .
Tmk: Who?
ME : NIlly .

Tmk:Okay , teacher Audra , I will ask NIlly what happened .
Tmk: NIlly what happened ? Come , tell me so then I can go and scold the teacher who
scolded you .

Tmk : Who made you merajuk ?
NIlly with tears in her eyes pointed at me .

I was observing the whole time , to tell you the truth she looked cute !!! I don't know what Tmk told her , so she went to sit in a corner .


Me : Nilly , come here please .

She refused .

Me: Girls , bring Nilly to me .


Still merajuk , so no choice , I have to pujuk her , I called her and she came over . She sat on my lap and I told her why I did what I did to her .. Yes , she was crying and Pras took her phone and took a shot of us . Don't know if it will be posted onto face book .


By the way, Nilly is still friends with me .

My Rosary

It's beautiful . I cannot imagine that I could do it . The beads are so nice .It feels right in my hands . I admire my handy work almose everyday . I am learning and thanks to G , my hobby is taking shape . Yes , we are so excited and we have planned to meet up once my rosary is done .


Right now, I have finished the first decade and moving on into the second one .it's not always that I do it , I take a few days off and then I continue . You may ask why , because I am running out of eyepins and jumprings so I need to tread on very carefully .


I want this to be perfect. As usual , I have already placed my orders for more beads , eyepins and jumprings though I also may want to make necklesses and ear rings .. but for now those have to wait ..


I may make a trip tp Daiso to see what they have . This tip , I picked up from G !!!
Just to window shop , no need to buy !!!


I am making good progress .. if you look closely , it's as good as what you buy ... I am waiting for the rosary to be completed but I am taking my time and that is good .

Memories

It all started because of TMK ... she la was the culprit .. Talking and talking non stop, I thought about my ex kindy . How it was when I was there and then .. we had to go and talk about this kindy and that .. Okay never mind , plus my friend Corina posted some shots from St Ronan's , I got all worked up ... According to TMK , it's a sign of jealousy of wanting it all .... But we can't , can we ?



By looking at the shots .. just the shots .. got me going .. what if .... and I dwelt into this ridicoulously sandy bottomless pit. The light at the tunnel is way too far .


Now , how do I get out of this mess ? Easy , stop thinking about all of those memories and move along ... So starting today anything to do with memories , I am so out of here .

Memories are good actually . It's where you only take the good ones with you .As we all know memories makes good stories to tell .... when you're grey and old .

All the same I will never forget ... ever .

Shu Yen

Very brilliant , confident and reads like a train . some kids cannot keep up with her because of her speed .

She retains every detail very well and only needs to be taught once . Nilly loves her to bits however , shu Yen cannot stand Lynus .. It's cute .. You see Shu Yen knows what I go through to teach some of her friends ... she knows it when I am under pressure and this is what she tells me .

Shu Yen : Teacher , I go and teach Lynus okay ?
Me : Are you sure ?
Shu Yen : I can teacher .


We are doing math addition within 50 .
She goes to Lynus .

Shu Yen : Come, Lynus I teach you , teacher said can.
Lynus : Ha , can ah ?
Shu yen : Yes la , people say can somemore want to ask .


Okay that is really fine with me . I continue to observe them .

Shu Yen : Lynus this one wrong .
Lynus : Ha , rub ah ?
Shu Yen : Ya lo . Aiyo .
Shu Yen :How many 20 plus 40 ?
Lynus :I don't know wo .
Shu Yen :( Her voice gets loud ) How many times teacher Audra tell you tens and ones
which first , now write here.
Lynus :Ha , here ah .
Shu Yen :Aiyo ya la here now write here , hereeeeee.... six , six .

It's a typical day for me and by the way Shu Yen's mum is a primary school teacher so maybe that is why she sounds the way she does .. but I intervene and get poor Lynus out of her clucthes and he smiles on .. his smile means one thing ... "Phew what a relief , teacher Audra saved me !!

Exam Fever and Take Aways ....

You know when I was a little girl and growing up , I never ta paued my homework ... Have you done it before ? I remember , if I was absent from school , I would go to school the next day and my teacher would give me the homework or class work that I missed ...

Nowadays , is so different .. I had a string of chilren , who were absent today , coming in to ta pau their homework .. and I was like , Yes , 'May I take your order please"? ...


They come right up to me and say , 'I need to see teacher so and so '... It's really cute to see them coming all the way from home just to get thier homework from school .

The mothers who accompanied their chilrend were also under pressure .. I heard one mother saying this to her child .


Mother : Oi , faster ah go and take your home work from teacher Audra ah '.
Child : Stared and the mother angrily .
MOther : Next week exam ah , you cannot cory ah ... must practice if not...


Alamak , I tell you these mothers are really under pressure la ... they are so afraid of the exams until some mothers even have nightmares !!!! As for me I just gelak because it's really funny to see them at times ....

But everything will be fine . just you wait and see ..

Lady Ga Ga

Nilly comes into class , humming Lady Ga Ga's latest hit ,


Me : Nilly , can you stop singing that song ?
Nilly : Teacher , but I like that song .

She goes on and on singing the song till Bee Ee comes in .

Bee Ee : What are you doing Nilly .
Nilly : Me , Lady Ga Ga , ma . ( Nilly is chinese now )
Bee Ee :What ?
Nilly : Eh , Bee Ee , you see ah do like this . (She shakes )
Bee Ee: How can I do that ?
Nilly : So senang wan la .. you gelek ....
Bee Ee: I don't know .



Okay with that and some giggles , they play together until....
Shu Yen comes in .

Shu Yen : Teacher , you see Nilly and Bee Ee.
Me : Yeah , I know they look like udang kena air panas !!
Shu Yen : What ah teacher ?
Nilly : Teacher , tak baik tau cakap kita orang macam tu , nanti masuk api neraka .
Me : Eleh !


Hadief comes along . He giggles at the girls. And he whispers to Nabil,


Hadief : Cuba tengok tu .
Nabil does not say nything but just smiles and it's Nilly who will stare at them with daggers in her eyes and yes a comment has been said , it gets a little too loud for me and ............. okay class if you can't keep quiet , you can always stand outside ... and with that I begin my lessons .

Nilly

This will be the first time that I use my students name for this post , If I don't, this post will not jadi .


If you come to my class for a visit , be sure to ask for Nilly . She is one cool kid . She loves to talk and express herself .She is my secretary and my right hand in class . She will try to out do everyone and even challenge the boys in my class . She is full of life and such a joy to be around with ..

I do not know what I'd do without her . Besides Nilly there are few more who try thier darmnest to win my affections . How do I do it ? I just love them all to bits . They are as good as the fish in the sea !!!
The joy that these group of children gives me , is so great and pure . You cannot find it anywhere else . The boys are great as well . With only five of them around , it may look like I have a hundered of them .


It's really nice going to work and at times ,I just can't wait to get into class so that I could be with them . I don't know how you feel but as a teacher , I like being around kids .


So as for Nilly , she does everything for me and she even wants to be THE ONE .I am hoping that they never grow up ... being adults are no fun at all !!!!!

Zombiefied 101 .... today

I felt like a zombie . I do not know how the others felt . I was just too lazy to teach but I did . I tried my best . My teachers were on MC . I was so sad tha they were sick and all . All I could think of was .. the bed ... the aircond .... my bantal peluk ....


... and also to be in my thread bare t - shirt .... oh , how nice it felt . The thought of it , made me feel like just telling the kids to pack and go home . The tiredness from the sports day was still hagling onto my shoulders . That's it I need rest . Maybe somewhere remote , by the pool sipping pinacoladas ..... how nice with the breeze hitting my face ..


However I was brought back to reality ... and .... I am in my class , oh , the noise . Yup my kids they are in thier element , NOISE ..... how they love to talk and just talk .



Now I am still feeling like a zombie and ... and .. I just wanna have fun ! Not fun , I just wanna crash !!!!!

It was and it wasn't

Something funny happened yesterday . I went into the wrong blog . I was close and yet so far . The best part was,I even posted a few comments here and there in the wrong blog .

I even praised the blogger for having good penmanship and told the blogger to continue writing .It was funny , till my dear friend asked me where were the comments that I posted ...

TMK : Where did you leave the comments ?
Me : There la in your blog .
TMK : WHere ?
Me : There la , you wrote about your dream and all .
TMK : Are you sure or not ?
Me : Yes, it's there , how come you can't remember what you blog ?
TMK : Oi , you went to the salah blog la .. it's not the potato head one la .
Me : Ha , adui .


See , Tmk felt like she kena the jackppot la . And me Hmmm ..... too tired to even know , I mean I am so tired and infact TMK called me a nerd .. yup I am one ...

Roll Over and play dead ?

So, should I just roll over and play dead ? I mean with sports over and all . I know , Iknow it's just a thought .So what does Superboy does on a Monday ? Why Superboy you ask ? The guy is just a side kick , and we only hear about the Man Of steele .


Or better still , what does Catwoman do for entertainment ? Wait .. Did someone just say she coughs out hairballs ? Then again , with such activities as this , should I just get all the kids to roll over and play dead ?


Mind ... sound or unsound how is that ? Okay I do not have the statistics for everything that I say . At the moment my mind is saying .. take another day off . Don't bother with everything and everyone .... just go ahead ... . Well that is not what a sound mind is .. So what has a sound mind has to do with rolling over and play dead ?

For the love of everyone I do not know anymore or need I say more ? Okay at this point I'll just shut up !!

the sports that never was

We had great fun but boy ,was I tired . Tired not because of the sports , tired of trying to get well .. It has been so long ... I was on Mc and I did not take it .. Instead I went to work , as always to show everyone what I am made of ... I wanted to show the whole world how committed I was to what I do ..everyday ...

No , it's not that .. at all . Never to show off for one . I went because most of my teachers were sick but the best part was I came home early .. I have an understanding Boss .

Okay back to the Sports day. For one the weather was a killjoy and the kids ended up crying .. I felt like crying too . But we forged on and pushed ourselves to the end . I would like to say that it ended okay . My poor teachers were so sick , some came and then left early to go home .. Poor thing ! We could not please everyone that day but we did and tried our best .

crazy Beautiful

I love this phrase , crazy beautiful . I heard this phrase for the first time on t.v. and I was thinking to myself that I never knew that crazy was beautiful and that being beautiful was crazy at the same time . Anyway being beautiful myself is crazy !!! Ahem !!


Seriously everyone and anyone out there is crazy beautiful . Just embrace life and hold on tight .

Sleep

Have you ever sleep walked ? Me , nope never had that . But today I must say that I was pretty tired and I came home only to lie down but I slept . Very soundly . I was even too tired to answer the phone . I heard it rang .




I think , I really needed to sleep because , I was sick and that I was also on Mc and i still went to work. But I must say that I really had a good sleep and now I must fall asleep again because tomorrow , I have to be at the padang . Sunday is the day and I must really rest . I do hope that the sports will turn out fine and that everyone will go home happy.

Teacher's Day do ... and do more !

We had a simple one . It was something that I have been wanting to do . with all the help that I got from the teachers ... It truly meant something .. for them .... how they tolerated me and my moods and I them .


We wanted to keep the family close , the bond must be there and after 5 whole months , I can finally say that my family is together . I can see them coming together .. That is a great sign . No matter what they have been there for me and all of the littlest things that they have done for me , today is a much celebrated day ..


The menu was simple , cake , speghetti , cocktail , curry puffs fruits and drinks . I mean how often do we celebrate teacher's day ?

Not that often , at times we are just too busy and when teacher's day comes along , we just wish each other .... perhaps the next teacher's day , we will buy the cake from Secret Recepie .... hmmm that would be good .


On a lighter note ;

To all of my teachers , thanks for being there for me , great in all your work , beautiful in your art and may the smiles of all the children brings one huge hug from me to you .

HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY ...

Loads of love ,

YOur Principal .

the cough

First it was nothing .. I was so glad , I mean with sports just around the corner , I was praying and hoping that my throat will be okay ... but I forgot that every part of my body has its own mind and that includes my throat .... I told my throat and my tonsils to hang on .. but they never do listen to me and now I have a sorethroat .... what a bummer .. ( the tonsils had a party last night for one of the organs , I heard it was a twenty first birthday bash !! )

No fever , that is also good too.. runny nose yes .... so what is the next move ? I went to the pharma and got me some Amoxil ... 500 mg , cetrizine 10 mg .... woods peppermint cure .. that should do the trick .... I should have taken the amoxil on friday but , then we had rosary in the house ...


Now , my body feels so like tak sihat , but my throat not so sore and I am coughing .... I will go to work as usual ..... Oh boy !!!!!!...... Please dear lord , Let my sore throat go away .. and tonsils the terrible duo please try to calm down for my sake ....

Hmmm ... I have this asam boi in the fridge , so pehaps I will go and boil some hot water and pop a few of this kana and wait till it juices out and drink ..... sedap tau .... hope my tonsils shrink .....
Like Doctor Bernard use to tell me that I am simply keeping my tonsils for dowry when I get married ...... yeah .. how cool can that be !!!

NO GOT @ I DON'T HAVE !

Each time . when I ask my class to turn to a particular page before teaching , smarty pants would always answer , ' Teacher , no got .' I was like .......................... 'What' !!!!!!!!! What is no got ? I have never heard this line before in my entire life .

Me : "What is no got Danish ?"

Danish : " No got la teacher ".

Me : " But what does it actually means ?"

Danish : Means , I cannot find the page ."

Me : "Then you have to say "I can't find the page , teacher and not no got ."


Danish : " But I say that all the time , even at home also ".


Okay D boy if you insisit on saying it , heck go ahead .

The Best is Yet to come ..

Okay here is the thing , I am having such a wonderful time , and eventhough with stress around ... I still make time to visit my farm and do my beading .. sounds crazy right ? But I don't care , this is MY time ....

So what is in store for the weeks to come ? Tuesday sports rehersal , then terus - terus head on for a meeting . Done . Wednesday till Friday ....... busy , busy , Saturday .. head to the padang , In APIIT decorate , decorate , home again , home again jigetty jig. Sunday .. wake up early head to APIIT again .. early and wait .


Wait for the sports to begin ...... run , run , pant , pant , give out medals , make speech , talk , talk ,
Find missing children , soothe crying children .... find mummies and daddies , hug , hug . all go home , Monday is a holiday and clean up .

Hate

Hate is a strong word . God says that we should never hate anyone and not even ourself . I remember hating myself so much ... no matter what I did or said , by the end of the day I hated myself even more .

Nothing could be said , I was sinking , I did not know what to do and my guardian angel ........ I left her out in the cold . She told me to take her hand and trust her .. but I could not because I did not trust myself even then ....


It was a darkest time for me , and I sunk in deeper and deeper .. no one could save me ... it was a time then I heard my angel calling out to me . I awoke and saw ..... I grasp her hand and Iwas out of the dark .... and now I live .. live to tell my tale .... I stopped hating myself ... I moved on .. and now I am free ...

Mother's Day Yesterday

I drew two hearts and got the kids to colour it .. some wanted to colour the heart green , one wanted to colour it purple ( so romantic ) ... the list went on ....

Once it was done , I cut it out and attached a straw to it . It looked so nice , Seriously , it did . Then , I told them to hold up the hearts that they coloured . All I could see was a sea of pink and there was a whole lot of love in my class .


Then , I took some pictures with my phone . But too bad , I do not have the equipment to post in into my blog for all of you to see . Perhaps next time .. anyway they all looked cute ..

I asked them to sing , I love You Dear Mama and after teaching them the song for only 3 days , the managed to sing the whole song for me ... It was truly a nice Friday .... I was very proud of them for singing that song . It meant a lot to me .

Thankfulness

For me ,being thankful means having the most simplest life . I am thankful for almost all of the things in my life . It could be anything at all.

I use to teach my students that being thankful means , that deep down in their hearts , even if someone offers them a small gift or a sweet , they have to be thankful for it . I tell them stories about thankfulness and you will be surprised with the answers that they come up with .


It's easier to teach children than adults .. I cannot blame or pass any judgement . But one thing is for sure , no matter what , when we educate children at a very young age , they seem to receive and retain what we adults tell them . I will remember moments like this because when a child is young , it is easier to mold them . When they grow up ,it will be a different story entirely .

I Love YOu Dear Mama

What I say and what I do ,
Let it be a joy to you ,
I'll serve you with all my might ,
I love you dear mama.



Everyday and everynight ,
Help me mum to do what's right ,
I'll love you with all my heart ,
I love you dear mama.


I love you with all my heart ,
And I'll always pray ,
I will be like you are ,
More and more each day ,


Thank you for the love you've shown,
Thank you fo rthe joy I've known,
Make my heart your very own,
I love you dear mama.

Beads ..

So far I have completed 6 beads .. yes ans I am very proud of myself . G has given me some eye pins . Bless her .. I prayed before I started and I told Mother Mary that I am making this rosary for her .


It was hard at first because I was missing a plier . My fingers hurt too . Asked dad to go get me the flat nosed plier . And now with the plier in hand , I have to get used to the idea of working with both hands . Easier said than done .. I spent a good 15 mins putitng the eye pin into one bead ...... sheesh .. but the finished product ? Good I could not tell them apart .... hmmm

I am enjoying beading .... and it very relaxing . Iam so into this that I just cannot wait to order more beads .....

Mother Mary , please help me to complete the rosary for you ....