Wednesday, January 25, 2012

But IF I Let YOu Go

Letting go is one of the hardest thing that anyone could ever do ..in life we must let go at some point ..be it a child , someone or even a loved one . It is never easy ..when we do not let go, we can't get on with life because the attachment is no longer there and sometimes it lingers. We feel insecure and we just want to hide away forever. But not so. Letting go has evolved ..over the years I suppose so, but letting go is still hard. It either make or break you. We have to break even. In between the borderline, chances of survival is there but slim. So one has to take that huge leap to survive but if you're at the end of it, it will eat you up whole all your life . In life we all have to let go even if we don't want to. To me letting go is pretty hard. You are so used to with life routine that when it is time to let go, you feel a void . Your mind's eye let you see the things that you don't want to, perhaps the truth and the truth hurts . Eventually, we let go.The heart feels uneasy but the mind says to let go and move on. When it finally hits you and you know deep down in your heart that you have to let go, say it with a prayer. 'I forgive you , I love you ,You were mine and I now I let you go , go in peace and be peace with yourself.' To my friends whom I let go along the way , may you find your way back on your own and I wish you all the best.

Sunday, January 22, 2012

End Of The Deep

I remember some time ago, I may have blogged about this ... on a different tittle ..just the same a friend asked me, how I felt about my scars . Growing up, I used to hate it. I was full of anger and I did not know any better . I was young and during that period of growing up, I thought that IT was my time besides growing up, it was my time to get anything that I wanted. It was not so . I spent a lot of my time sulking and I wanted everyone to feel sorry for me . I did not know better than . One thing is for sure, the scars are a part of who I am . My identity . I was lucky enough . For some , it could have been worse . The next question that I got asked was, do I feel pretty. Feeling pretty on the inside counts.. not what is on the outside . Being and feeling positive made feel beautiful in my own skin. In fact, when I apply any make up onto my face, I'd tell myself that I look pretty. A smile breaks out and I feel great . One of the best advise that my boss could ever give us each day is 'WEAR YOUR BEST MAKEUP, THAT IS YOUR SMILE'. I kinda agree with him. No matter how you look, when you smile, it is the best !!! I get people asking me if any of my dates minded that I have scars on my face. Frankly speaking ,I don't know how they felt because I never met anyone who was bothered with my scars . As long as we are comfortable with each other , that was enough for me. All my life, I have had friends come and go. One thing is for sure , all of my friends have been very accepting towards me and they never bothered the way that I look . The only thing is, we remain friends till today . For that , I would like to wish everyone a very happy new year ..