Monday, June 29, 2009

Melina

I was thinking . I mean I don't know Michael Jackson however I wrote about him and sadly enough I lost a dear friend Melina to cancer just two days ago and I did not even write or blogged about her . Some friend I am .

I met Melina ages ago when we were together in our caroling group . The thing about Melina was , she was petite and she had a big voice , she loved to laugh and she was a bubbly person .

I admire her will and courage because no matter what without fail , after work , she would take a bus to church for her choir practice . After the practice , friends would take her home . She loved to sing . This went on for a long time . What I knew about her personally was that she was single ... that was all . I don't know where is her hometown or who are her family members . All I knew was ,where ever I was, she was there be it for a rosary session or for some meetings in church.

Just two days ago I found out from a friend that she was from Ipoh and that she has only one sibling . See , I felt so sad because I never asked this when she was alive . I only knew so little about her .

I went to her house a few times and I remember clearly during one of the meetings held in her home , I opened her fridge to get something out and there in her fridge was a few bottles of facial cream.

Me : Melina why do you keep your facial cream in the fridge?
Melina : Then it will really be cold when I put it on my face ... ( she giggles ..)
Me : That's a good idea .

And guess what ? Now I keep my eyeliner in the fridge !!!! Don't ask but many have guessed . I picked this trick from her .

As I look at her picture the other day , I could hear her laughter so clearly in my mind. The way she spoke . I said my goodbyes to her even though I was unable to go for her funeral . But before I log off , another thing about Melina was --- her handbag . She has the most amazing stuff in that bag and if you feel unwell just open her handbag .From minyak angin to Panadol ... everything was in THAT BAG !!!!

Melina , we miss you , we wish you good journey and Rest In Peace .. dear friend .

Saturday, June 27, 2009

Parent's Day

On a lighter note , today was our parent's day and it went so fine that I am so proud of myself . This is where I brag about myself............ I was better prepared and I knew what I wanted to say . I felt so glad that the parents are aware that their child has improved however some are sad over the fact that their former class teacher should have pushed them harder . Well in a positive kinda way .


But these kids are really special to me not only do I spend sleepless nights trying to figure them out but it's the space that I have created for these kids to be just ............................ kids . Plain and simple , we have forgotten ourselves, how to be childlike and it's not wrong . I mean there is nothing wrong if you were to walk into my class and find me on all fours !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Someone has to be the grownup . In fact I have to be a grownup too but at times I refuse . That is because I just wanna have fun .

Okay back to the parent's day ---- It was a good day for us and I delivered what I had to and as they say it , it was signed , delivered and they are mine for the time being !!

Tribute

I guess I am a sucker when it comes to blogging even though no one ever read but it's okay . This place is just for me to let off some steam . It's a good bad , so it's okay.


Today in church we paid a tribute to Micheal Jackson . We were talking about healing and after the priest had finished , there was a presentation , "Heal The World". It was a very meaningful presentation for me and I was quite emotional .

I dared not look up to the OHP fearing that I may just break down . I am not so over the top crazy about Michael Jackson but it's just that the video was a meaningful one .

My classmate just told me that it was so hard for her to digest the fact that he is gone however she felt happy that she managed to catch a glimpse of him when he was in KL . Like I was telling myself it is time to let go and get by . And this is the last post that I will post about him , but I will still blog on and rock on .

Friday, June 26, 2009

WHat's The NEws?

Right , everyone , I mean everyone in the whole wide world will talk about the death of Michael Jackson . Well a world wide icon has gone ... so what is next or whom shall I ask will be the next icon ?

No and yes I am not and yes a fan .... hmm that does not make any sense at all . But one thing I know is I grew with the guy ..... yup through his songs . Let's face it , if you were to put his cd on, I am sure you will move your body . I mean it's like all of his songs are danceable . It is not like some , where you could only dace to a few tracks and that's it .

My sister has one of his earlier albums and that guy can really sing . I mean he has a good set of singing pipes !!!

At such a young age , his voice controll was good . Yup he will be greatly missed . So we will all be sad , but we shall overcome and he will never die beacuse as sure as the stars in heaven , I will tell my children about Michael Jackson .

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Muzzy

Today I felt muzzy in school . I found myself walking in and out of the classroom . My head felt so heavy . I just want a quiet time out . But how ? I was waiting for my students to be accessed but that was a no show . Perhaps tomorrow .


I just need that quietness . A full minute should do the trick . Then I went to the office during my free period to check on some names . Correction of names to be typed onto the leaving certificates . With that done , I went back and got straight to work .

Not bad my student can read averagely and that pun a smile on my face . Tomorrow will be another day . THursday would just breeze through with a meeting at 1 pm . Meetings and more meetings ... hopefully I AM ABLE TO START MY CONCERT VERY SOON .

I am still feeling tired .....

Monday, June 22, 2009

Good News

I found my story The Tree . It popped up as I posted a new post . For that I am so pleased ..............................

Full Of Thoughts

Well firstly I lost my post . The story about the tree has gone missing and what am I going to do about it ? NOTHING.

MY head has been so full of thoughts lately . I can't seem to get them out . It's loaded not with work but a decision that I have to make if IT falls through . I can't seem to find anyone that I can talk to . I need someone who understands what I am trying to say however I have not found this person yet.

I need this someone to give me a hard kick , to actually say to me that I can do it . Deep down I know that I can .

It is nothing troubling, just letting it out . This someone that I need must be able to make me see the clear picture of everything .

Words have been inside my head for the past 2 weeks and no , I am not going crazy on anyone . It's so much of what if's ...... I need to find this someone whom I can trust and believe in .

It's a choice .. I hope a good one .... to make it a really good one.

Each time when I try to say the words , it just don't come out right . I need to put my finger on the dot but...................... where ?

This is what I will do , I will just let it be for now but deep down in my heart I know what I want .

As for this someone that I need , I may just have to find him somewhere else or perhaps another time.

Saturday, June 20, 2009

The Tree

When we first moved to Seri Gombak , we had to locate the nearest church and the nearest that we got to was the St.JOseph's Sentul Church . Now , in the parking lot , stood a huge tree . It was the best tree that was ever planted there , It gave us ample of shade , green leaves and we had our breakfast sales under this huge tree.

It never failed year in year out ,thist tree was our landmark. If anyone wanted to visit the church , we would tell them to look out for a huge tree. We seem so comfortable having this tree around and legend has it that this tree is old . How old I just could'nt say .

As a little girl I was aware ofthis tree and it has heard many masses over the years . Now I know trees can't hear very well but I know this one did!!!! How I knew don't ask,but I just knew it ...
As we got older this tree too got older . It was time for us to move away and sadly enough I said goodbye to this tree as I just don't know when I will ever see it again ..


I went back a few times to visit and this was still there , standing strong and tall. It welcomed me with a wave !!!!

Today , I went for a wedding and as I entered the compound I was met by two huge cranes . I was crushed . I saw my once upon a time tree being cut down. It stood so proud showing us it's branches , trunk leaves and shoots. It's no more to be seen . Someone told me that this tree was 80 years old. What I heard next was even sadder. It seems that this tree was feeling not too good and on one Sunday morning, it's branches just gave way and thus it fell onto some cars parked below it. They tried to save this tree however ,the best solution to everything was to cut it down.

I said a peacefull goodbye and so did my friend . We shared a few memories and blew flying kisses at it .

Goodbye dear tree.

Friday, June 19, 2009

Today After a WEEK of school...

I must confess that I am tired after a week of school . With concert in October , for some it's a long way to go , but for me it's not !!! So here I am with many things in my head . Which should I do first ? Everything ? Well , if I had my way I would do everything at a go ... which could only mean one thing ... that is I have to say put in school and that will not do at all !!!!

Okay first things first , this weekend , I will be resting and celebrating father's day at home , which also reminds me that I have to go and get a cake . The coming week will not be a breeze however I am willing to make next week a good week . The coming weekend will be our much awaited parents day . All I need to do is talk and talk and talk !!! Here comes the best part, for lunch , we the teachers will be going to SHAN'S for lunch . Yum , yum and more yums to come.

Then, my dear student has gone to Bangkok and she will not be back till next week and I will be having a new student ..... arrghhh!!!! but I will prevail .. Then with all of these so called happenings , I will start my concert .

Please wish me luck . I need loads . Really I do ... hu ..hu... hu...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The Word Bank

It all started , when I was thinking how I could zest up my class . I was trying to come up with ways .... you know to add more fun in the classroom . Actually the word bank activity has been around for ages . It is just that as teachers, we are sometimes too caught up in our work to spend some time with this activity . It is not new to me and why have I not thought of it before ?


Anyway better late than never right ? So with all the semangat in me , I asked the kids to just write out a word each . it could be anything .. however I had my doubts if they could give me a word . So I did the next best thing . Today we learned about Nouns , I wrote everything down and then I just told them to pick and write the word that they like.

It was time , then , to have our lucky- draw -word- for the day . I called the smallest child in my class. He came up shook the container and he picked the lucky word . I decided to write down the word and to my surprise , they managed to identify the word and they had so much fun . Oh, and the picker gets to glue the word on a manila card .

Surprise , surprise .. well I now have a new best friend and I can't wait to do it again .... it really helps and that really gets the children to spell and say out the word .

Okay you might ask , what is so special about it ? Well , it's not but it sure means a lot to these kids ..

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Just so tired

I was so tired and I just need a few winks . The past few days has really been to just tiring . Like today I received a call from a parent saying that my student brought RM20.00 to school . So I went in to the class and I ask him where was the money and he denied 100% saying that he does not know where it is and he did not take it !!!

I told him to tell me truth but he still kept on insisting that he did not take it . Bless this child. As I was about to give up ( cos I was so darn tired ) , another boy said 'it's in his pocket teacher'. Okay busted, found the money and returned it to the mother .

Then I went to see my principal because she now wants me to be involved in the YOUNG LEARNERS CAMBRIDGE --- At this point of typing I can't seem to hold my head up !!!! So with the briefing and time table and planning we will begin soon and , and I have some reading to do , to familiar myself with the components and such , such and much , much more ..............

Monday, June 15, 2009

tHE dAY

Today is the day we started work . I did not dread the day because I knew I was ready . With 2 weeks of rest and all of my insides was shut down , it's time to awaken all of my senses and move ... Yup I like to move it ,move it .

Frankly speaking I can't stand that darn song . So why did I ever use that particular line then ?
School was so swell today , we got some reading done , subtraction done .. although some got lost along the way !!!!!!!!!! But they tried .

We are in the midst of creating this lovely craft . We plan to sell these crafts during our concert and with the money that we raise , it will be donated to charities .
I told my students that they have to do it with love .

Stage one has been completed and we have a few more stages to cover . Let's hope that everything will work out fine .... the art of course !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sadly enough I can't show you the finished work here :(

Saturday, June 13, 2009

Sleepy

Sleepy cos it's quiet;
Sleepy cos I have nothing to do and think about ;
Sleepy cos tomorrow is a working day;
Sleepy cos I'm penniless;


Sleepy cos I can't touch my toes ;
Sleepy cos the a bee went flying by;
Sleepy cos I'm moody;
Sleepy cos the cat dragged in the trash;

Sleepy cos the next door neighbor roared ;
Sleepy cos I really have nothing to do at all;
Sleepy for I won't be for too long;
As the next day I would be sleepy all over again !!

Made Someone smile Today :)

That is what I like . TO put a smile on someone at least once a day . It's okay too if you can't . Anyway this person was quite stressed up . I don't know why . So I happen to read his thread and thought to myself , why not just try at least to put a smile on this person .


I did and it made me feel nice as well . In fact I was smiling too . What this world need is a lots and lots of smile . Enough of what is going on right now . A smile should do it . Okay here is the deal since I will be going for mass today , I will try to at least smile to those whom I meet . Does not matter weather I know the person or not . My job for today is ;SMILE 101 .

Easier said than done . A smile means a lot . A smile takes your troubles away . A smile means your being ; admired , appreciated , loved and cared .

Friday, June 12, 2009

My dream

I was online in Face Book when my sister went online with me and she asked me this, what are your dreams ?

Now, that is a good question . Well, there many kinds of dreams , but what she meant was what was my plan for the future .

The dream that I have has been a long time dream . At this point I could tell you there is a but coming somewhere along the lines but let's forget but for awhile shall we ?

My dream is a nice one , I have this so called dream of one day standing in front of a crowd doing nothing but lecturing ....

I could say the vision is becoming clearer and clearer and in order for it to become a reality , one must take the right steps . A very brave step . Well , nothing is easy in life right ?

I try to keep my dreams and hopes close to my heart and I know that someday , It will become a reality for me .

I Prayed Today

I prayed today not for a miracle; I prayed for something that has been close to my heart . I told myself that I will continue to ask but all I ask is the ONE and most important to me .

Maybe I should say what I asked for .. but .... Anyway I have been asking and it's true that past favors have been granted.

A friend of mine , asked me once if I got what I prayed for . My answer would be YES . I also said to her it was not about lotteries but it was about the small little things that was granted.

How did I feel ?

Over the moon , happy and blessed.

So , next time if you want or need anything, just ask .

feeling Tickled Pink

It's a nice feeling tickled pink and try to say tickled pink as fast as you can.

I was searching for some images and happen to stumble upon some pictures of cup cakes . It was in pink and one of the lighter hues .

It got me thinking that all I wanted to do was think of those pink cupcakes which reminded me of soft baby toys ... Okay will not go there , I mean I like babies and all but this pink , .... it somehow got to me .


I remember now , when I was a little girl , all I could think of was pink cotton candy floss. They don't make them now like they used to . Those soft hues are forever long gone . It has been replaced with solid colors and it is way too sweet .


I remember how pink made me feel , like being in the clouds a place where I seem to escape when lessons got bored in school . However a certain teacher made sure that I was brought down to earth .. So happy head in the cloud was squashed .

What will ever be next ? I will stop thinking of the color pink and no more tickled pink !!!

Thursday, June 11, 2009

The Project

Okay I have finally got over it and sunk it in into my head that I am the emcee and with that out of the way ... I have been assinged a craft project for the concert . Best part is all of the teachers have to do it and why do we torture ourseves with this ?


Simple. Each year we get the kids to do a simple hand work . It could be anything with any kind of materials. Once when these crafts are completed , we sell them at our concert do . The money which is raised will be donated to a charity home .

IDEAS ???????????????

Where and how to I get my ideas ?
Easy normally I would google for them or simply visit a site and from there I work towards it.

However, nothing seems easy for some . Like me ( as usual ) I mean I would read through of what kinda of craft that I am searching for but............ I would always change and improvise .

Then the next day , when I get to work , I pretend not to have any ideas for it and yawn and tell my fellow teachers that I have not for the love of art and craft found anything yet!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Too good to be true . Just kidding . I mean it takes time and effort to get it done . Like so it will be a blast on my part and I know my kids will have fun .. Tata ..

ME .. What emcee again ...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

See , how can this be . Not again . I was the emcee for our sports day , and now I was chosen again . I mean , why can't they just leave me be ? We have hundreds of teachers and they go and pick me . I did not decline the job / duty . Now why is that ?

Is it because I know that deep down in my heart I know that I can do a better job ? That is a little big headed of me don't you think ?

Okay here is it , normally I will not panic , I will just pray about it , then I will go and dig all I can to find out what I have to do . Try to memorize some of it and someone once told me that I have to be the glue that binds everything . Now see I have to go and be that glue again !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Why ever am I fretting ? Okay I am calm for now , will take deep breaths now . Okay I am good .

So what will be my first step ?
Nothing ,
sit back ,
relax,
have loads of fun,
give the kids pressure ,
take long coffee breaks,
gossip,
take time to read ,

Hey wait a minute , I can't do those !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Well , I will just simply go over to the mamak stall and have myself a milo ice drink ...............!!

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Monday Is fast approaching

Monday willl be approaching very soon and it could only mean one thing and that is 'BACK TO WORK AND SCHOOL'!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Now , do I go NOOooooooooooo!! or just embrace life as it comes ?

Well , for starters I really , really had a good rest . Not a good holiday ,but rest . I need the rest more than anything else in the whole wide world . All I did was eat and sleep . To hell with the weight I packed in .The weight will go down eventually once when I speed things up .

But first , I have to get the students ready in 2 week time that is because a certain principal will be coming over to access them . Yipes!!!! Hey , it's okay by the time she comes I will try to have them ready .


Forget that for now just let's concentrate on the bigger picture . CONCERT I just hope that I will not be chosen to be the MC again . I just did for sports ,so now it's someone's turn right ?

Let's see the fun tomorrow . Loads of meeting . Let's just see who will fight tooth and nail to be the next MC .

Monday, June 8, 2009

Sad

I am feeling a little sad today . Yeah I could do with a little cheer . But I guess it will pass . I am disapointed as well . I can't seem to control everything and I don't want the stress . Seeing a certain someone has made me quite sad . I can't tell you who or why but I will blog and maybe after this I will not feel so sad anymore.

I don't need or want him to like me . Why ? I can't even begin to tell you why . Is it so hard to just click ? I know I am not an easy person to live with . We actually lives thousands of miles apart .

I guess I cannot force the hand of faith and I simply have to let it be . Maybe I am being overly sensitive about this . I could try again . But once bitten and you become twice as shy .

See , I feel a whole lot better now , I am glad I got to blog this . I just hope our friendship would continue to grow from afar.

I think that's the best . Being apart for so long, is better this way . At least I know that the next time when we meet a hello would be just good enough .

I am fine now , not so sad anymore and after this my life continues .

Sunday, June 7, 2009

Beofre I go to WORK

Well I thought since I will be going to work soon , I can post a story before I go . This is one of the perks of working so very close to your home .

Well, today is clean up day in school . I guess this will be one of the fastest clean ups that I will do . Tidy here and there and you're done . Should be back by 11 am . See sounds good ? Too good to be true .

Today is one of those days where my dad will be driving me to school , hehhe!!! Relax ,I drive every other day .

First stop will be the nasi lemak stall . Get my breakfast to go and I will be the happiest girl in town .

It's 7.09 am and I am way ahead of time . Maybe just a few more lines and that should do it .

The best part is I have finished my filing , progress reports and preparation of homework all done . This can only mean one thing and that is I will be resting while the other teachers will be busy getting their fair share of work done .

Saturday, June 6, 2009

My First Swap

Okay I'm like thinking should I do it or not ? The swap I meant of course .. what then .....

So here I am or rather there was I and I was trying to find a simple swap . I started off with a simple swap . Why ? Because like some or for some , we need to test the waters first . Yup toe in first then once you get comfortable then you jump right in . Full steam ahead .

Now here is the thing , I have to make or buy Three postcards and write funny quotes on them .Easy . Now I have to wait and see who my partners are.


Not to worry as I have consultants at hand to advice me on this !!! She knows who she is .

I just hope that this swap will be a success and then of course I will swap more often .

Now , I have a class to attend to .

Tata

Friday, June 5, 2009

The Pig -- THe Patron Saint.... OF Cleanliness.

There was once a pig and she was no ordinary pig . She was the neatest pig in the whole pen . She has four brothers and they were all dirty looking not to mention their pens .

Anyway , one day the neighbors got jealous of this neat pig . Because ,I mean how can a pig be so neat and tidy when we all knew that pigs were suppose to be full of dirt!!!!!!

So they set up a council and voted among themselves to have the pig evacuated from her pen . When the father pig heard this , he pleaded with the pig to change her lifestyle and get mud and grime all over her pen and everywhere so that she could be saved.

But no , she was an educated pig and that was a big NO !! She refused . One of the members reported this to the council . They in turn reported the matter to the chief .

It was later said that this so called clean pig ended up as someone's dish on a platter .

The story does not end here , when she was slaughtered , she was sent right up to PIG HEAVEN. There , she was crowned as a patron saint for all pigs .

So , it was said again pigs in the world would have a special gathering in her honor.But this was no ordinary gathering . It was a time when all pigs would clean up their pens and word has it , that is usually lasts for five minutes and then it would be messed up in no time !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hope you liked this tale ...

Why I Blog

Basically why I blog is to get things off my chest . At times I have something nice to say but I guess I have been saying nice things all this while . No , bad things will not do . Just the easy stuff . It lets off steam at least .

Pretty much of which is / was caused by none other than ME . But this is not why I blog . I blog for the sake of it and everyone in town is blogging . No , that's too lame . Let's face it , I just want to show everyone my typing and blogging skills ... that is not the reason as well.

Okay , I will cut to the chase , some blog for a particular reason . Some blog as I have mentioned earlier, that others does it and so do they . For me I am just trying to see if I can really do it . I mean I have done it , but blogging gives me space to say what I want to and be happy about what I have said .

There ,

Okay go ahead and say that this latest post is so overly lame . It's okay you won't hurt my feelings!!!!

Thursday, June 4, 2009

The not so greatest news .

Here's the thing . We have a few teachers who will be painting our classes . WHy ? They are so nice that's why . So the deal was they paint and we will go and clean up our classes .

Okay fine , yesterday they arrived and did the painting . Today my friend said that we can go on MOnday to clean up our classes . OKay fine nice right ? Well not so nice , because they did not paint our classes . So now , my friend and me will have no clean walls . But we can't go make noise cos we refused to paint and these people came to paint for us instead .( Bless them ).

Now can you please tell me , how would we look if we were to go and ask ? Hmmmm............. simple let it be . We will just go and arrange or class as it was and pretended that this never happened . How's that ?

Hey, we are the good guys too okay !!!!

WHat do I ever think of ?

Seriously , what do I ever think of ?

Many things actually ...If I were to say I think of DEATH .. It's not a good thought . I mean why think of the end when the beginning is the most important in our lives . If I were to speak of death so freely in my home , I would have to go for confession. Because such a thought should never enter into ones head .

Anyway , I will not be depressed and talk about death. Instead here is what actually I about most of the times when I am awake ;

I think of;
puppies
books
colors
water
children
being happy and just being me

To tell you the truth , the list goes on and on . I don't even care if no one ever reads what I write , It's just the thought of letting some steam off my head . Like I said , these are just some thoughts put into words . Yup it will not make any sense to some but to me it will and it does .


Wednesday, June 3, 2009

I was Knitting

One day when I was knitting I heard the wind howl ;
It howled so ,that I nearly jumped out of my skin;
The wind howled and there was a kind of whisper;
Asking if I had fallen asleep.

That was not all it did , no ,the wind came into my home;
And took me away ;
It brought me to this enchanted forest and all I did see was....
The echoing sounds that it made;
It was sad, and lonely;
The wind spoke to me and said in a sad voice , "be my friend please';
It was a plea , a plea that I could not forget;
In my minds eye , I could see that the two of us would become friends;
I took the wind by its wisps and led it away ............... away to a special place of soundless sleep .

Books, Books Galore and everywhere

I began reading at a very young age . I love to read and I have been reading ever since . The best place in the whole wide world is of course to me is the bookstore . Well I even had this dream of opening a bookstore , where I can read and my mother can't find me at all !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Lost to the world and into my own little world . I don't think I need food ..judging by my size , I could get away without eating for a few months ( to which I would probably die and frizzle away ).
However it is a good dream .. how nice . It's a thought . I never seem to feel bored when it comes to reading . I am in my own world . Nice , quiet and just plain silent. Today I went to the bookstore to get a present . I was so jealous of all the books they had there , if I had a magic wand , with a swipe , I would get all of those books to my house !!!!

I could dive into an ocean of books , or how about if I just slept with all of those books all over me ? No , that would be a big silly no , no .

In the mean time , I will just have to finish up what I am reading and get a new book to start with ...