wonderment

in the wonderment of everything , i still think of you ,
i may not be the perfect one, 
but somehow we fit together,
in everything that i do, 
in the wonderment of me and you.




in the wonderment of everything, i don't think i have heard such a  word as this!!!!
it's the wonderment of you that makes me smile.




in the wonderment of everything, you seem to know,
silently in thought , your strength draws me closer,
it is everything that you do and say , makes me love you even more.




you are brave in wonderment and i quite like it,
it just goes to show that life goes on,
it shows that when we are one we are breakable...




.....but when we are together, we just get stronger .

not so as i thought ...

what was to follow, caught me by surprise . it had a long time coming, but i was not sure when and i just couldn't decide. you could say that the good LORD has been on my side ..


at first it was a difficult decision but on the whole i know deep own in my heart it was a decision made right ..i turned down the offer to UM for a number of reasons and i felt a huge relief .


somehow, i'd like to think that every decision that we make, there is a silver lining ..after this was done and everyone was happy , i did the next thing ..


that is to deactivate my face book account ..that was another step, to which i felt that i needed to be away ..i mean why deactivate when you can just leave it an go whenever you felt like logging in ..


but that was not for me because i felt that i was addicted to it and no matter how tired i was, i would log in each day . it was getting to be a bore and i felt that i was boring the life out of me ...






so then i decided that with out my face book , i feel free, i can now do other stuff ...like read , talk,listen to the radio, pray , laugh an whatever makes a sane person ....


i don't mind , who knows i may just reactivate my face book account one day but when i do not know for now i am faceless and not bookless ..

no lower cases and upper casses

so today as i sit here once again , and during the holidays with loads of planning to do , to which i am procrastinating ..not a good sign ...but believe me , i will thank myself later for this !




its not that i wish to procrastinate but certain things you have to . maybe i just need to feel the adrenaline rush and then ..it works ..i am an artist that is how creativity works ....




i have come to this now , where i am satisfied for the little things that i have achieved . yes , the continuity it there but this time its my pace and not on anyone's pace ..just mine .


having taken and making that one decision, has made me a better person. most of the time we hear what others tells us but then again its good to hear what your inner self tells you . it's good to hear that one voice telling you to decide and decide well .


i guess when it comes to this, i have full support from every area and that makes up for whole thing itself.


i just embrace life as it goes day by day an i am taken care of and everything will be okay . i just have to take it easy and all will end well ..


i just want to thank those who had my back over the years . it was not easy but they have made it possible for me to rise above it .


i thank those who have made me very happy .