Monday, August 31, 2009

to run or not to, and the bumpy ride

FOr starters I am not participating in a Marathon . It's just a saying that if everything goes as planned , I may have to run like hell !!!! That is another saying .

I am not thinking about it but just..... okay thinking about it . There you got me . So meaning that I have to perpare myself mentally and physically . How ?

Okay let's say that I pay close attention to each minute detail . Will that be considered as 'preparing myself mentally and physically '? I do not know . Everyone is afraid of the unknown . What can I do ? All I can say is PRAY and that whatever I have to face ,it will be accordingly and done in good faith .

Support is good too . I just hope they do ...

Our Day and The Three Stooges

We have been called the three stooges by friends and family alike . Why ? Because we seem to hang out together most of the time . I mean friends go like; how can you spend so much time with your parents ?

That is easy because we are a very close knit family and shopping with them is fun . If you don't believe me , got out with your parents . You will be surprised . But NOOOOOOOOOOOOO younger people of today feel that , this is not the most HIP thing to do .

Oh , what will my friends think if I went out with my parents ... I mean they are so old duh ! Yup ,that is what they will always say . One thing is for sure , always appreciate them the most when they are around and not when they are gone .

It has been quite special for me that I have the chance to always go out with my parents and each time we do have fun . Take for example like our birthdays . The 1st of Sept in my mum's birthday , the 2nd of Sept will be thier wedding anniversary and of course on the 3rd of Sept is mine .

It's not wierd at all but unique . Most friends ask if we ever do a special celebration . Our special celebration is thanking God for everyday of our lives . The simple things that we have achieve along the way and the people who made our journey special .

Sunday, August 30, 2009

What's Up With Today ?

I can't feel the spirit of Merdeka . Oh well , I will just stop trying too hard !!!!! Today is quite cloudy . MUm is sewing something , dad is watering the plants and ME its always with the computer . How is that , that I never get tired of it ?

No don't answer that , I bet a million of us out there do the same . Okay but today .... what's up with today .. it's pretty quiet . Okay why bother . Quiet means good ... lot's of silence and shhhhhhh.................... around.

So ,actually I plan to have quiet day .. I just can't stand going here and there .. and I'll soon get cranky For those of you out there .... just go do what you have to and have fun doing it!!

The Connection and The Link

Well It's not a movie . I had loads of fun today . I was online with my sister and a cousin from Australia . I mean it's like this , the connection is between here , Brunei and Australia . As I was saying we girls lost touch with our cousins and we have found each other again .

So ,this time around we did not let him go . My sister is still online with him . I mean I felt happy because it has been a really long time and ......

Yup for once I am speechless . But one thing I know for sure is, if I ever go to Australia , I could visit him and his family . If I were to go to Pupua New Guinea , I could visit my aunt and uncle and a whole load of cousins .

It's nice having cousins around the globe .I found out things I never knew . Some were sad but most of the time .....

I just want to say that I am truly glad to have found them once again ..

Saturday, August 29, 2009

Merdeka

Tomorrow is our Merdeka and this is how or rather what I plan to do ;
1 go for tuition
2 laze around
3 laze around and
4 also laze around !!


Okay it's Merdeka for crying out loud and this is the way I plan my day ? Well , it's not that bad actually . See like today ,I have a class to attend to but only for an hour $$$$$ ( Ka - chingggg!!! ) can you hear the sound ?

So what that is over , I will get home have lunch , read the newspapers , then it's sleepy time . Wake up , ah...... yes I have some mini popiahs to roll yum .... so good life is ... get them fried and my mum will be preparing ikan bilis fritters and that would be double yum and you can't have some !!!


My Merdeka wish ; is to live in harmony and peace . With all of us being 1 Malaysians , may the true spirit of oneness be with us and may the force be with you ..

Okay that's lame . I mean we all need THE FORCE .

Happy

Why because my mum went for a colonscopy and the test results was ok . Green light . She can eat anything .. Phew ! With that now we must make sure she recovers . That's easy , we will make her laugh everyday !!!

We went there , to the hospital quite early . The admin staff were very helpful . There were only 7 patients . They did not waste any time at all . One went in and the next and then it was my mum's turn and within 15 minutes , they wheeled her out .

As she was resting , there was this young gentleman . He was the last to show up . However , he had clod feet . Poor guy ... he was so nervous , the doctor had to talk to him and reassured him that everything will be fine .

Anyway when we left the hospital , this guy was still loitering around !!! Poor guy !!!

Friday, August 28, 2009

Friends

What are friends ? I know for a fact that a friend is someone who listens and hears every word that you have to say . A friend is also someone who defends you till the end . A friend understands and know the meaning of being a friend .


I have had wonderful friends throughout my life . They come in all kinds of sizes and shapes and they are still friends . They give you this wonderful feeling by just being around them . They welcome you with open arms and the best part is when friends get together .

They can be vey loud or silent and sometimes sad for a friend. They weave their stories together creating thight knit relationships . One that is not easy to break . They laugh with you and cry with you at the same time .


Friends come and go but best type of friends are those who call themselves the 'back yard ' friends . You see the 'back yard' friends are the ones who will always come to you be it for a bowl of sugar or for some milk .

When YOu Leave

All I can say is I don't want you to leave . It will be sellfish of me . Okay I get it that you have things to do and it's sudden . It's time for me now . It's my turn . I understand the stress so go and do what you have but you promised to be back .


I am sad ,well no . I don't know what or how I feel . All I know is , it's gonna get bumpy without you but I will try my best not to upset anyone and continue where you left off . I wish you the best . It has been very nice and I was really looking forward to more ,not only with you but with the rest as well.

It still feels sudden for me . I know that you must go . Go . Go and make a difference but remember your promise to be back . It's yours I will gladly give it back to you . Don't worry .

I know why and I know how but what would I do when I flip up ? You said that it was okay to flip up because we are only humans and you said it ; don't be too hard on yourself . Only when you settle things you'll be back . Right ?

Thursday, August 27, 2009

House

First of all I am not talking about the movie HOUSE !! I would like to own one someday ---- a house . See . Well it does not sound easy . But we can dream about it can't we ?

Yes a house . I would like to buy a terrace house . I have one in mind but...... okay hold on . Why a terrace house ? For starters , I like terrace houses. Easy to upkeep . But then again location is another thing right ?

So for now I would not fret , I will just let it be for now but I still will dream about it tonight though!!!

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

I lost my post

I was writing and with some unlucky luck , I lost my post .. hua , hua hua ... I remembered how to get it back but alas faith has intervened and I lost it ....

It was not an important post actually . Or is every post important ? It actually depends on how you look at it .

Anyway , what was lost ..... don't regret . Right ? How true . Do you sometimes get the feeling that you actually find you are talking to yourself ? Well , I do .. Who wants to know right ? I guess it's a good form of theraphy because it de- stresses yourself .. well okay then . Let's just wait till tomorrow ....

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

jUst Tired

I had a tiring day today and my feet ached . I walked a lot today . Today I took 25 students to the Science Center and then off to Royal Selangor .

It was okay but the kids , I could see were quite restless . They were happy with their picnic in Titiwangsa and it brought many memories for me too by just being in Titiwangsa itself . It was the place where I took my ex students for walks , rides ..... 13 years ago . How time flies . As we journeyed along , I saw more new buildings .

At times I wished I could go back to that very moment but life has to go on . So after a brief visit to the Royal Selangor , we travelled through to get home . And as we travelled along , we came to Taman Seri Gombak . This place had been my home for 22 over years . I saw the roofs , they looked tired and old . I drank everything in .

Now , that I am home in Shah Alam , this is my new beginning . The old has gone and forgotten but during some quiet nights , I will lay down and think of the old memories ,

This Is where I Threw It Away For Good

Finally it has happen to me . nO more fuss or muss and I am happy to say that what ever is bothering me , I have thrown it far away for good . This is it , like or not I have to settle it on my own . No one is gonnna come and rescue me .


I don't need rescuing or saving I just need someone to talk to . This is easy I have a few friends whom I can count on ............ but it's just for awhile and that's okay too .

Why worry when I have a load of people who loves me and understands me . So today is the day I threw it away for good . No more complaints just throw it away and never look back . I am telling you right now that I am ready and good . By my actions they will know , what I am trying to say and mean . Yes , today is the day I threw everything away for good . No more sadness just happiness .

I can do this .

Monday, August 24, 2009

I have Been Thinking

I have been thinking loads lately and I found out that while thinking about it I had a headache !! So now ,no more thinking just relax and see how it goes . In fact , tomorrow I have to take a bunch of kids to the Science Center and to which , I don't know where is that !!!



From there , we will be going to the Royal Selangor and yup I may have the urge to buy something so again I was battling with myself , should I take some extra funds to go and buy a small something ? NOPE , no need . I mean what can you get for RM 20.00 ? NOTHING ... right .

IN all the business of everything I have to remember to take the first aid kit . Okay tomorrow I will have to go look , find and dig for it .

Then with everything over , it will be makan time . Where ? DON'T KNOW . Hope it's some fast food restaurant!!!!!

Okay I will try to enjoy plus with the mask covering my mouth , it also could mean one thing that is I don't have to talk with the mask on !!!! Oh, I should get my temp scanner , should'nt I ?

Sunday, August 23, 2009

No , They Don't Understand

Look all I can say is, people don't understand what you want and what you mean to say . No, I am not some genius that I need to talk to people who are clever . I am not that . I simply just need someone to hear me out . You know some kind of someone who lends an ear to you .

Simply putting it ; I have had friends who says that they just don't know what I mean at times . Hello , go smell the roses . If you want me to speak to you in Mandarin ok , I can . In Bahasa also I can . In Portuguese ? Can . It's my mother tongue but Tamil cannot lah !!!!

What is with these people ah that they are so caught up with life that they just shut themselves to everyhting around them . I was like thinking , okay since blogging can't do much because I need feed back you see and blogging is just typing all the way but I changed my mind about blogging .

I think that from now on , I should just blog even though there will be no one to tell me what to do at least I get it out of my chest .

I just don't get it for the love of life how some people just block everything out . Are they dumb or just plain stupid ?

What Have I Been Up To ?

Well to tell you the truth , I have been so sick with many times . End of July was not the month for me . That alone ,I got sick 3 times and I just could not take it at all . And when I thought the worst was over , I got sick again . It was just terrible for me . I have swallowed countless of tablets and that made it worse and I felt like ..... I just can't discribe it .


I was on MC for 2 days and all I did was sleep , sleep and I could not even eat . But , everything came to an end when I started to get well . I was quite relieved . I just needed a hug . That was all and I could not even get that . The slightest touch was too painful for me , my bones was painful and I felt like I just got hit by a huge truck .

I was thinking of Michael Jackson and Yasmin Ahmad and I don't even know why . They keep popping up in my minds eye . Where is this leading to ? I just don't have the answers right now . I am sane not insane . That was what my fever did to me .

When it finally broke , I felt a sense of relief . I know for a fact that I could go back to work , carry on with life and so on . I hope this phase is over and that I would not be so sick anymore.

Monday, August 3, 2009

How Happy I am ..........

I lost my voice for a few days , it went away on a holiday without even inviting me !!!! I could not speak and my throat hurts . I wanted to sleep but I could not . All I felt like was just shutting everything out .

I even went to work , I had a slight fever and I was stubborn too when my friend asked me to go home and said that she would take care of my class . TO tell you the truth , I don't trust anyone with my class it has to be ME sending the kids off home !!!

So , with Friday along , I completely lost my voice , I kept quiet most of the time . My mum said that I should not talk and within the next minute she's asking questions and she expects an answer from me !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Saturday came and I was quiet even in church ... I could not participate in the mass . Okay , I thought to myself , I will just get home and rest ..
Sunday was a miracle for me . My voice .... came back not bad ... On Monday I started to speak like as if I was on a fast track ... well , I have to take it easy ...

Saturday, August 1, 2009

This Was What I Did Yesterday

Well for starters , I don't normally shop like anything . It has really been a long time since I went shopping for myself . Normally it's for others or food for the house .

Okay seriously speaking , I shopped like a mad woman . I mean why do I need 4 pairs of jeans when 2 pairs would be enough right ? Well wrong .. it was going for Rm 15 and I had to have it . Besides we are allowed to wear jeans to work . Yay !!!

So , I went again yesterday to BU and bought 4 pairs !!!!!! 2 for me and another 2 for a friend . I was upset at first as I could not find them ... yup after spending a few minutes looking for them high and low .......... I found them .

It's was fun though plus I got a belt and a handbag for myself . Having said this , I don't think I will be shopping for awhile .... yet ..