missing ....them

i miss my kids a lot .... its no fun without hearing their voices .. well what to do .. i just have to wait till school reopens but i doubt that they will come ..since they will still be celebrating .. oh not to forget , the cookies that they will bring for me to eat and the trs , i am sure that they would wana do a jamuan .....


3 days of combined session .. i think canla .... we send the kids off early and i have to send a kid home too ... so what would happen is send the boy , head back to school and makan ....


i just miss them ...

.... at home

today is the 3rd day in a row that we have been making tarts for orders .. not too bad . we woke up early as early as 6 am to get ready so that part of the other day is for us to rest ..


later will be going over to my aunts place to deliver the cookies and then head to my cousin's place which is not too far as well.... and i must finish my reading .. blood of the fold .just a few more pages to go .... this book took me longer than i had expected .. the first one that i read was done within two weeks .. well i guess i had a lot on my mind and now since i am on leave might as well try to finish up what i can ...

so with the raya coming up soon enough .. maybe i just would eat ketupat and rendang hahahhh .. well another eating sessions with my cousins and all .

i await you

my family has been involved in the bec for the longest time that i can ever remember . not a day goes by that u don't see them not contributing for the community and because of this i too , when i was young followed them . then it got to a stage that our house was the HQ .. where all the happenings took place , be it for a meeting , youth meetings , meetings and gatherings you name it. till today my dad especially him ... still goes round for his duties .. never failed and he never let anyone down ,... even when he is sick , he will try to attend meetings ...

lately i have been thinking about attending some of these meetings .. not to be sibuk ,even i had the signs as well in a dream ... just the other day ,i told my mum i dreamt of the holy spirit ..we were in church and the holy spirit came upon me and i remeber .. light , water and fire .. it was more of a glow..


i asked my mum what could it mean but we just shrugged it of as it was just a dream.. and i might say that since i took on becoming the principal of my school , i felt a change in me . i felt that i grew confidently .. i can feel my confidence growing day by day ... less scared , less panicky and even when my boss asked me to carry out any duties , i seem to do well....


of course along the way there are ups and downs ... less of being fearful and i am game for anything .. so does this means that i am growing up .. hey i'm huge already and i can't grow anymore ...

and today a friend emailed me in a nice possible way .. he said that he noticed that i was busy buiding a garage for my farm , how about building god's house ? so i am thinking maybe just maybe my dream has something to do with serving god ....there i was thinking .. right , how hard can that be ... the best part was i told my dad .. i need the car because i have to attend a meeting and he said .. no he has to attend a meeting as well .... well then , we will just have to go together then ....


i await you ..
i am coming lord

it's going to be a stormy one lord ...