diamonds and pearls

sadly enough people , these are not the stones that can be found in my gall bladder ... went to the clinic today .. my friend opened her clinic just for me .. how nice .. but she had something to do .. anyway if there were diamonds and pearls in my bladder

i would definately ;

buy a house ,
get a new car,
get a kenwood mixer for my mum and me ,
get the best computer on offer,
air cond my new house ,
make a work room where we can bake ,
get the best wet and dry kitchen for the house ,
get a dog,


.... so doc cut me up !!!!!!!

thinking but not thinking on my feet

thinking and thinking and at times i do not know what i am thinking about hahahah .. makes me wonder and in my mind's eye i seem to go beyond thinking of thoughts that are irrevelant .... is that spelled correctly ?

ok never mind then .. i was thinking about the old folks that we last visited and yesterday i saw someone wearing a kechara t-shirt perhaps i could go help out and give out food .... but i just can't .


it's not that i do want to get involved but i remember , at the old folks , it was time to give out the goodie bags to the warga tua and i did not make it up to 5 poeple because i had tears in my eyes and it just kept coming .. i was crying and giving out the goodie bags and then i was thinking what kind of a monster would leave their dad or mum in the old folks ?



i get it if they can't look after their parents but what i don't get it is that there are some who send thier parents to the old folks because of property ... and thier children are able working adults ..

i mean i just don't get and that was why i cried .. i cannot go on .. it is still freash in my head ... but i do hope that the children of tomorrow will not do this ...

ponteng church

i woke up at 5 am today and i realised that something was very wrong with me . i was fine yesterday and today , i had the urge to urine .. wait , let me tell u why .... this is no ordinary urine .... nope thats a bit off .. never mind .. so i went to the ladies and after everything , came back to bed .

not even a minute and a half .. i went to the ladies again and this time i knew i had urinal infection .... its painful and if i do not get to a doctor immediately i could die ... no not die .. the pain would get worse , i will get a fever , maybe i feel like vomitting ....


but i was not worrried becaus i had supplies of ural and the antibiotics for it .. so i took a dose and i was in the toilet for an hour .. i did not go to church , afraid it might get worse .. cancelled my tuition class and now at home resting ..


the urge to urinate has subsided , and pain is minnimal ..... however i need to be careful.. a doctor once asked me how often i had sex .... i was shocked .. but when i googled today .. it said the same thing .. well .. all i can do is get well , drink loads of water .. by the buckets would be good , drink cranberry juice .. i was drinking it for awhile then i stopped .... so i thank god once again for making me sick during the raya break and by doing so , i can take a week to get well ...

cuti raya

on a lighter note i will be on leave for a week .. okay it's the best . i need rest , but i do not need a holiday . need i go the spa ? forget the spa , i just cannot imagine lying down and have some stranger massaging me .. no , no can do .. forget the spa ....


i almost forgot , i could eat a few chocolates which happens to be lying around in the fridge or i could eat my ikan satay and to hell with the whole wide world .... easier said than done ..

i am proud to say that i have already prepared my student's homework and i have nothing to do ... wrong .. i need to buy flowers for my ring .. no i am not getting married .. not even close .. its for my korean dance .. i can already imagine the headlines .. 'teacher makes it big in concert' yeah alright .. big time !!!


these are all stuff that i need to for my kids .. but is anyone doing anything for me ?seriously .. what about me .. never mind cuti raya or not ... i will be enjoying ketupat and rendag ............ selamat hari raya all ..

birthday everyday

yesterday was my birthday and so i am using lower case to post .. starting today that is .. i have no kuasa to even push down the shift button .. no more perfection it's what i will be doing ..

i wish that everyday was my birthday and so i have decided to have my birthday everyday . i felt the attention alright , i felt so special yesterday and i do not want it to end . after so long i cut my cake .. my own little cake .

today, is my birthday also .. i just wnat it to be and speaking of simple things i forgot to make a wish yesterday . is it too late to make one now ? but then again what can i wish for ?

god has helped and blessed my family and my frieends around me .. what more could a girl ask for !

age 38 , is just a number .. let's see my star sign said today , i would get what i have always wanted and yes i got a cake turn table ... hahha !!! hobby .. that aside , i am not much of a party girl , but i do know one thing , on my special day , i thank god for each day of my life .

perfect prefect

I just don't know this, but I have to say it here . I am a perfectionist .. there I said it .. I expect everyone to be on their toes and work fast . It does not happen that way unfortunately and for that, some may not want to work with me ... It has been so, for a long time and I guess , when I was working as a teacher , I was trained that way ..

The plus point is I get my work done and I will not let my anyone question me . So before they can ask , I have already completed a task . I try .. but I just cannot help it . I made some teachers upset and I expect them to work hard and aim high . Like I said sadly enough it does not work that way .

Why ?

I give 110% each time I am at work and I enjoy seeing my students and teachers succeed . Hard work always pays off .. now there is a but coming on right now . Some do not have the vision to succeed and the mission statement in their lives are so different from mine .

So what do I do ?

Ignore that fact that you don't have to work or know your stuff ?
Close one eye and just let it be ?
It's ok cos in the end you get nothing ? Which is right .

To hell with everyone and just bully everyone into working hard and harder ?


I just don't know .

The only thing I know is and can do is to keep my mouth shut . NOW , THAT I SIMPLY CANNOT DO !!!

9.41 as i saw it ...

It's 9.42 pm now , I am counting the hours .. excited nope .. it's just another simple day and it's my birthday tomorrow . The best part is, tomorrow will be the last day of school for our semester break ,hmmmm also in conjuction with the raya celebrations .. how cool can that be ?

Tomorrow, for breakfast , I will head on the the Kopitiam ,which is near to my school and get a nice breakfast for me and a friend . I guess you could say that we're gonna take the day slow and steady and when school reopens , it will be my firned's birthday .. yup the one who belanjaed me hahha .... then its my turn to belanja her .


38 .. I thank GOD for the 38 years of my life . It has not been so bad at all compared to what other people go through ... satisfied ? Yes and No, hahhha !! I guess one would never be happy with what we have .

Saturday is going to be a nice day . Will be attending a birthday party for a very cute baby and I will be leaving early to go to LMC to buy myself a cake turntable and a stainless steel scrapper for icing .. it's just a start .. we'll see .. maybe I need to get some flowers for a cake that I am going to bake for my cousin for Raya .. THinking of violet .. have not decided yet on the icing ...but it will be fun ....