missing ....them

i miss my kids a lot .... its no fun without hearing their voices .. well what to do .. i just have to wait till school reopens but i doubt that they will come ..since they will still be celebrating .. oh not to forget , the cookies that they will bring for me to eat and the trs , i am sure that they would wana do a jamuan .....


3 days of combined session .. i think canla .... we send the kids off early and i have to send a kid home too ... so what would happen is send the boy , head back to school and makan ....


i just miss them ...

.... at home

today is the 3rd day in a row that we have been making tarts for orders .. not too bad . we woke up early as early as 6 am to get ready so that part of the other day is for us to rest ..


later will be going over to my aunts place to deliver the cookies and then head to my cousin's place which is not too far as well.... and i must finish my reading .. blood of the fold .just a few more pages to go .... this book took me longer than i had expected .. the first one that i read was done within two weeks .. well i guess i had a lot on my mind and now since i am on leave might as well try to finish up what i can ...

so with the raya coming up soon enough .. maybe i just would eat ketupat and rendang hahahhh .. well another eating sessions with my cousins and all .

i await you

my family has been involved in the bec for the longest time that i can ever remember . not a day goes by that u don't see them not contributing for the community and because of this i too , when i was young followed them . then it got to a stage that our house was the HQ .. where all the happenings took place , be it for a meeting , youth meetings , meetings and gatherings you name it. till today my dad especially him ... still goes round for his duties .. never failed and he never let anyone down ,... even when he is sick , he will try to attend meetings ...

lately i have been thinking about attending some of these meetings .. not to be sibuk ,even i had the signs as well in a dream ... just the other day ,i told my mum i dreamt of the holy spirit ..we were in church and the holy spirit came upon me and i remeber .. light , water and fire .. it was more of a glow..


i asked my mum what could it mean but we just shrugged it of as it was just a dream.. and i might say that since i took on becoming the principal of my school , i felt a change in me . i felt that i grew confidently .. i can feel my confidence growing day by day ... less scared , less panicky and even when my boss asked me to carry out any duties , i seem to do well....


of course along the way there are ups and downs ... less of being fearful and i am game for anything .. so does this means that i am growing up .. hey i'm huge already and i can't grow anymore ...

and today a friend emailed me in a nice possible way .. he said that he noticed that i was busy buiding a garage for my farm , how about building god's house ? so i am thinking maybe just maybe my dream has something to do with serving god ....there i was thinking .. right , how hard can that be ... the best part was i told my dad .. i need the car because i have to attend a meeting and he said .. no he has to attend a meeting as well .... well then , we will just have to go together then ....


i await you ..
i am coming lord

it's going to be a stormy one lord ...

diamonds and pearls

sadly enough people , these are not the stones that can be found in my gall bladder ... went to the clinic today .. my friend opened her clinic just for me .. how nice .. but she had something to do .. anyway if there were diamonds and pearls in my bladder

i would definately ;

buy a house ,
get a new car,
get a kenwood mixer for my mum and me ,
get the best computer on offer,
air cond my new house ,
make a work room where we can bake ,
get the best wet and dry kitchen for the house ,
get a dog,


.... so doc cut me up !!!!!!!

thinking but not thinking on my feet

thinking and thinking and at times i do not know what i am thinking about hahahah .. makes me wonder and in my mind's eye i seem to go beyond thinking of thoughts that are irrevelant .... is that spelled correctly ?

ok never mind then .. i was thinking about the old folks that we last visited and yesterday i saw someone wearing a kechara t-shirt perhaps i could go help out and give out food .... but i just can't .


it's not that i do want to get involved but i remember , at the old folks , it was time to give out the goodie bags to the warga tua and i did not make it up to 5 poeple because i had tears in my eyes and it just kept coming .. i was crying and giving out the goodie bags and then i was thinking what kind of a monster would leave their dad or mum in the old folks ?



i get it if they can't look after their parents but what i don't get it is that there are some who send thier parents to the old folks because of property ... and thier children are able working adults ..

i mean i just don't get and that was why i cried .. i cannot go on .. it is still freash in my head ... but i do hope that the children of tomorrow will not do this ...

ponteng church

i woke up at 5 am today and i realised that something was very wrong with me . i was fine yesterday and today , i had the urge to urine .. wait , let me tell u why .... this is no ordinary urine .... nope thats a bit off .. never mind .. so i went to the ladies and after everything , came back to bed .

not even a minute and a half .. i went to the ladies again and this time i knew i had urinal infection .... its painful and if i do not get to a doctor immediately i could die ... no not die .. the pain would get worse , i will get a fever , maybe i feel like vomitting ....


but i was not worrried becaus i had supplies of ural and the antibiotics for it .. so i took a dose and i was in the toilet for an hour .. i did not go to church , afraid it might get worse .. cancelled my tuition class and now at home resting ..


the urge to urinate has subsided , and pain is minnimal ..... however i need to be careful.. a doctor once asked me how often i had sex .... i was shocked .. but when i googled today .. it said the same thing .. well .. all i can do is get well , drink loads of water .. by the buckets would be good , drink cranberry juice .. i was drinking it for awhile then i stopped .... so i thank god once again for making me sick during the raya break and by doing so , i can take a week to get well ...

cuti raya

on a lighter note i will be on leave for a week .. okay it's the best . i need rest , but i do not need a holiday . need i go the spa ? forget the spa , i just cannot imagine lying down and have some stranger massaging me .. no , no can do .. forget the spa ....


i almost forgot , i could eat a few chocolates which happens to be lying around in the fridge or i could eat my ikan satay and to hell with the whole wide world .... easier said than done ..

i am proud to say that i have already prepared my student's homework and i have nothing to do ... wrong .. i need to buy flowers for my ring .. no i am not getting married .. not even close .. its for my korean dance .. i can already imagine the headlines .. 'teacher makes it big in concert' yeah alright .. big time !!!


these are all stuff that i need to for my kids .. but is anyone doing anything for me ?seriously .. what about me .. never mind cuti raya or not ... i will be enjoying ketupat and rendag ............ selamat hari raya all ..