choices

we all have choices to make and to take ... what if it was a bad decision ? how would i react to the choices that i made ? i guess there is no room for me to worry about the choices that i made .


most of the times , it eats me up inside , but i guess we are human after all .. i used to feel pretty bad and low but i know deep down that i have to move on ... it does not matter who i upset , as long as i made that one choice and move on .. easier said than done .


i guess with a lot of prayers and more prayers i will come to make a better choice in my life .. it's not about dragging others into it but just make that one right choice and move along .

whats up

today was a busy day for me .. my feet aches and i wish there was a genie somewhere to give me a good foot massage .. but sadly to say the genie took off .!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my poor feet .

or maybe i should just take a walk and perhaps with luck , i might fin a magic wand .. and then i could wish for whatever i want ..how nice !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



today in school , we had only 3 puteri duyung who wanted to have splash time ..3 that's right you read right . they ha the pool all to themselves . i felt like jumping in myself but what am i to do ... stay on the sidelines and shut up ... sigh !!!!!!!


today is friday ... school is out for only 2 days it's better than nothing ..... one week ahead and dance week is ahead .



so what is in store for me ...................... sleep and nothing ..

get ME down

You tried to get me down and you did it ,
I let you and I was not strong ;
You caught me offguard , I let my guard down.

You pushed me an I stumble upon a rocky hill;
Down I went, I was afraid for I could not see nor feel;
How stupid I was to allow you in .

Get out!!!!
I don't need you in my life. I never did.
How I was , it was because I let you in .

A friend , you are not.
It took an angel to pick me up,
To see where I went wrong ;
I know............
You lie and make fear whole .

And so, I say get out , stop lying , I am not afraid of you,
I don't need you , you are nothing

bUT.................



........ a speck of dust in my eye , you mean nothing to me .. leave forever and never return .

energy went out

Today I will be typing the real way !! What is the real way you ask ? Forget real , my life is real and the devil tried to get me but he got burned .............. badly too, at that .

Forget the devil .

As I was telling my friend , how time flies ... It's July .So what ? It will be time for me to say goodbye to my students once again. They have learnt , and now they can't stop yakking .. and one day soon enough , they would be answering the phone !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh how they talk , they talk about many things and one particular hot topic , FACEBOOK

Girl:'Wei , kau ada facebook ?'
Boy : 'Ada'.
Girl:'Kita nak add kau boleh?'
Boy ;'Boleh'.'Bagila email nanti balik add la'.



It does not stop there , it finally comes round to the class teacher as well. And what with games and scores who could keep up with them . As long as they don't forget their Dictation next week , I am okay with it . Networking starts when you're six .. hey , who am I to stop ..............

my turn

these past few days has been a breeze and my lowest ebb .. mind you , it's something that i have to live with .. it was not easy for me and i was struggling ... but i managed . i felt lousy too an i just wanted to crawl and hide away and just forget everything ...

i am not only a person but i am only human and i can only take so much . i was looking for a friend that i could talk to , just to get it out and move on ... i found that friend and she told me to move on , learn from my mistakes , don't live with regret , it will eat me up one day ... what has passed leave it be .


those were very comforting words and i spent the whole day thinking of what i said and did , i prayed and ask god to forgive me . i felt a tug in my heart and i just wanted to run away from everything .


but i have people who love me and they kept assuring me and telling me that it's okay to falter and in time, i should be on the right track . for the past one week i was a zombie .. i could not eat and i was worried about many things .



i wanted that feeling in my heart to go away , i have to let go .. i could not do it and i was wondering if this was the end of me . not only did i feel the pain in me but i felt upset too. i have learned a valuable lesson and i know better now.

the day of today itself

holidays are coming to an end and so once again i look forward to seeing my students .. or perhaps not? it has truly been a wonderful two weeks with doing nothing !!

that aside , i actually spent a week in church for our parish mission talks ... then into the second week i, i popped by just to visit teachers who were on duty .


i spent the remaining holidays crocheting a runner and it should have come out better than i thought but then again practice makes perfect .... so i would be starting on another runner pretty soon ,,,, that aside,i may need to log on to you tube for some tutorials and then i am done ....


so much for the holidays ....i should be thankful for the 2 weeks break ... we'll see what takes place in my class ...

lappy my love

the other day i send in my lappy to the shop for reformatting and i would say that the tech did a good job ,... i have a back up system now and i was trying or i tried only half way to transfer it into my pen drive and speaking of pen drive , i may need to get a good one as i am afraid this one has been infected with virus ....


so now that my lappy is back with me , i am in business .. of blogging .. i missed so may days of blogging and today i thought that i'd start with one ...

but as we all know since the blog is about my lappy , on the side holidays has been pretty quiet for me ... but a spiritfull and spirit filled one at the same time .... next week would be another week , hopefully i get some playtime along the way ..


speaking of play after the holidays , we're going to japan ....