jUst Tired

I had a tiring day today and my feet ached . I walked a lot today . Today I took 25 students to the Science Center and then off to Royal Selangor .

It was okay but the kids , I could see were quite restless . They were happy with their picnic in Titiwangsa and it brought many memories for me too by just being in Titiwangsa itself . It was the place where I took my ex students for walks , rides ..... 13 years ago . How time flies . As we journeyed along , I saw more new buildings .

At times I wished I could go back to that very moment but life has to go on . So after a brief visit to the Royal Selangor , we travelled through to get home . And as we travelled along , we came to Taman Seri Gombak . This place had been my home for 22 over years . I saw the roofs , they looked tired and old . I drank everything in .

Now , that I am home in Shah Alam , this is my new beginning . The old has gone and forgotten but during some quiet nights , I will lay down and think of the old memories ,

This Is where I Threw It Away For Good

Finally it has happen to me . nO more fuss or muss and I am happy to say that what ever is bothering me , I have thrown it far away for good . This is it , like or not I have to settle it on my own . No one is gonnna come and rescue me .


I don't need rescuing or saving I just need someone to talk to . This is easy I have a few friends whom I can count on ............ but it's just for awhile and that's okay too .

Why worry when I have a load of people who loves me and understands me . So today is the day I threw it away for good . No more complaints just throw it away and never look back . I am telling you right now that I am ready and good . By my actions they will know , what I am trying to say and mean . Yes , today is the day I threw everything away for good . No more sadness just happiness .

I can do this .

I have Been Thinking

I have been thinking loads lately and I found out that while thinking about it I had a headache !! So now ,no more thinking just relax and see how it goes . In fact , tomorrow I have to take a bunch of kids to the Science Center and to which , I don't know where is that !!!



From there , we will be going to the Royal Selangor and yup I may have the urge to buy something so again I was battling with myself , should I take some extra funds to go and buy a small something ? NOPE , no need . I mean what can you get for RM 20.00 ? NOTHING ... right .

IN all the business of everything I have to remember to take the first aid kit . Okay tomorrow I will have to go look , find and dig for it .

Then with everything over , it will be makan time . Where ? DON'T KNOW . Hope it's some fast food restaurant!!!!!

Okay I will try to enjoy plus with the mask covering my mouth , it also could mean one thing that is I don't have to talk with the mask on !!!! Oh, I should get my temp scanner , should'nt I ?

No , They Don't Understand

Look all I can say is, people don't understand what you want and what you mean to say . No, I am not some genius that I need to talk to people who are clever . I am not that . I simply just need someone to hear me out . You know some kind of someone who lends an ear to you .

Simply putting it ; I have had friends who says that they just don't know what I mean at times . Hello , go smell the roses . If you want me to speak to you in Mandarin ok , I can . In Bahasa also I can . In Portuguese ? Can . It's my mother tongue but Tamil cannot lah !!!!

What is with these people ah that they are so caught up with life that they just shut themselves to everyhting around them . I was like thinking , okay since blogging can't do much because I need feed back you see and blogging is just typing all the way but I changed my mind about blogging .

I think that from now on , I should just blog even though there will be no one to tell me what to do at least I get it out of my chest .

I just don't get it for the love of life how some people just block everything out . Are they dumb or just plain stupid ?

What Have I Been Up To ?

Well to tell you the truth , I have been so sick with many times . End of July was not the month for me . That alone ,I got sick 3 times and I just could not take it at all . And when I thought the worst was over , I got sick again . It was just terrible for me . I have swallowed countless of tablets and that made it worse and I felt like ..... I just can't discribe it .


I was on MC for 2 days and all I did was sleep , sleep and I could not even eat . But , everything came to an end when I started to get well . I was quite relieved . I just needed a hug . That was all and I could not even get that . The slightest touch was too painful for me , my bones was painful and I felt like I just got hit by a huge truck .

I was thinking of Michael Jackson and Yasmin Ahmad and I don't even know why . They keep popping up in my minds eye . Where is this leading to ? I just don't have the answers right now . I am sane not insane . That was what my fever did to me .

When it finally broke , I felt a sense of relief . I know for a fact that I could go back to work , carry on with life and so on . I hope this phase is over and that I would not be so sick anymore.

How Happy I am ..........

I lost my voice for a few days , it went away on a holiday without even inviting me !!!! I could not speak and my throat hurts . I wanted to sleep but I could not . All I felt like was just shutting everything out .

I even went to work , I had a slight fever and I was stubborn too when my friend asked me to go home and said that she would take care of my class . TO tell you the truth , I don't trust anyone with my class it has to be ME sending the kids off home !!!

So , with Friday along , I completely lost my voice , I kept quiet most of the time . My mum said that I should not talk and within the next minute she's asking questions and she expects an answer from me !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Saturday came and I was quiet even in church ... I could not participate in the mass . Okay , I thought to myself , I will just get home and rest ..
Sunday was a miracle for me . My voice .... came back not bad ... On Monday I started to speak like as if I was on a fast track ... well , I have to take it easy ...

This Was What I Did Yesterday

Well for starters , I don't normally shop like anything . It has really been a long time since I went shopping for myself . Normally it's for others or food for the house .

Okay seriously speaking , I shopped like a mad woman . I mean why do I need 4 pairs of jeans when 2 pairs would be enough right ? Well wrong .. it was going for Rm 15 and I had to have it . Besides we are allowed to wear jeans to work . Yay !!!

So , I went again yesterday to BU and bought 4 pairs !!!!!! 2 for me and another 2 for a friend . I was upset at first as I could not find them ... yup after spending a few minutes looking for them high and low .......... I found them .

It's was fun though plus I got a belt and a handbag for myself . Having said this , I don't think I will be shopping for awhile .... yet ..