not so as i thought ...

what was to follow, caught me by surprise . it had a long time coming, but i was not sure when and i just couldn't decide. you could say that the good LORD has been on my side ..


at first it was a difficult decision but on the whole i know deep own in my heart it was a decision made right ..i turned down the offer to UM for a number of reasons and i felt a huge relief .


somehow, i'd like to think that every decision that we make, there is a silver lining ..after this was done and everyone was happy , i did the next thing ..


that is to deactivate my face book account ..that was another step, to which i felt that i needed to be away ..i mean why deactivate when you can just leave it an go whenever you felt like logging in ..


but that was not for me because i felt that i was addicted to it and no matter how tired i was, i would log in each day . it was getting to be a bore and i felt that i was boring the life out of me ...






so then i decided that with out my face book , i feel free, i can now do other stuff ...like read , talk,listen to the radio, pray , laugh an whatever makes a sane person ....


i don't mind , who knows i may just reactivate my face book account one day but when i do not know for now i am faceless and not bookless ..

done it and found it

well i have done it !!!!!!!!!!!!! managed to get into my new gmail account that was because i prayed and found it ... i am not so dumb after all!!!! right now the contractors are in my apartment and they are tiling up my kitchen floor .. it has a little hill on it and if you'd try jumping on it , you may actually break the floor ... now we can't have that, can't we ? NOPE at all......

by this evening , they would have completed the tiling work and there are also other areas that needs to be done ...


well i guess it's movie time for me for now ..................

This Is where I Threw It Away For Good

Finally it has happen to me . nO more fuss or muss and I am happy to say that what ever is bothering me , I have thrown it far away for good . This is it , like or not I have to settle it on my own . No one is gonnna come and rescue me .


I don't need rescuing or saving I just need someone to talk to . This is easy I have a few friends whom I can count on ............ but it's just for awhile and that's okay too .

Why worry when I have a load of people who loves me and understands me . So today is the day I threw it away for good . No more complaints just throw it away and never look back . I am telling you right now that I am ready and good . By my actions they will know , what I am trying to say and mean . Yes , today is the day I threw everything away for good . No more sadness just happiness .

I can do this .