thinking but not thinking on my feet

thinking and thinking and at times i do not know what i am thinking about hahahah .. makes me wonder and in my mind's eye i seem to go beyond thinking of thoughts that are irrevelant .... is that spelled correctly ?

ok never mind then .. i was thinking about the old folks that we last visited and yesterday i saw someone wearing a kechara t-shirt perhaps i could go help out and give out food .... but i just can't .


it's not that i do want to get involved but i remember , at the old folks , it was time to give out the goodie bags to the warga tua and i did not make it up to 5 poeple because i had tears in my eyes and it just kept coming .. i was crying and giving out the goodie bags and then i was thinking what kind of a monster would leave their dad or mum in the old folks ?



i get it if they can't look after their parents but what i don't get it is that there are some who send thier parents to the old folks because of property ... and thier children are able working adults ..

i mean i just don't get and that was why i cried .. i cannot go on .. it is still freash in my head ... but i do hope that the children of tomorrow will not do this ...

ponteng church

i woke up at 5 am today and i realised that something was very wrong with me . i was fine yesterday and today , i had the urge to urine .. wait , let me tell u why .... this is no ordinary urine .... nope thats a bit off .. never mind .. so i went to the ladies and after everything , came back to bed .

not even a minute and a half .. i went to the ladies again and this time i knew i had urinal infection .... its painful and if i do not get to a doctor immediately i could die ... no not die .. the pain would get worse , i will get a fever , maybe i feel like vomitting ....


but i was not worrried becaus i had supplies of ural and the antibiotics for it .. so i took a dose and i was in the toilet for an hour .. i did not go to church , afraid it might get worse .. cancelled my tuition class and now at home resting ..


the urge to urinate has subsided , and pain is minnimal ..... however i need to be careful.. a doctor once asked me how often i had sex .... i was shocked .. but when i googled today .. it said the same thing .. well .. all i can do is get well , drink loads of water .. by the buckets would be good , drink cranberry juice .. i was drinking it for awhile then i stopped .... so i thank god once again for making me sick during the raya break and by doing so , i can take a week to get well ...

cuti raya

on a lighter note i will be on leave for a week .. okay it's the best . i need rest , but i do not need a holiday . need i go the spa ? forget the spa , i just cannot imagine lying down and have some stranger massaging me .. no , no can do .. forget the spa ....


i almost forgot , i could eat a few chocolates which happens to be lying around in the fridge or i could eat my ikan satay and to hell with the whole wide world .... easier said than done ..

i am proud to say that i have already prepared my student's homework and i have nothing to do ... wrong .. i need to buy flowers for my ring .. no i am not getting married .. not even close .. its for my korean dance .. i can already imagine the headlines .. 'teacher makes it big in concert' yeah alright .. big time !!!


these are all stuff that i need to for my kids .. but is anyone doing anything for me ?seriously .. what about me .. never mind cuti raya or not ... i will be enjoying ketupat and rendag ............ selamat hari raya all ..

birthday everyday

yesterday was my birthday and so i am using lower case to post .. starting today that is .. i have no kuasa to even push down the shift button .. no more perfection it's what i will be doing ..

i wish that everyday was my birthday and so i have decided to have my birthday everyday . i felt the attention alright , i felt so special yesterday and i do not want it to end . after so long i cut my cake .. my own little cake .

today, is my birthday also .. i just wnat it to be and speaking of simple things i forgot to make a wish yesterday . is it too late to make one now ? but then again what can i wish for ?

god has helped and blessed my family and my frieends around me .. what more could a girl ask for !

age 38 , is just a number .. let's see my star sign said today , i would get what i have always wanted and yes i got a cake turn table ... hahha !!! hobby .. that aside , i am not much of a party girl , but i do know one thing , on my special day , i thank god for each day of my life .