first it fits and then it does'nt

I was thinking to myself lately and silently if you may ..... how everything seems to fit into place . I told myself that if I ever found myself wondering if my life fits into what ever that I hoped for , I would give myself a pinch !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Sometimes you may think if it was just a dream and then , that when you wake up , it all disappears . But it does not , and I am glad . Plain and simple . So what is the next chapter of my life ? Good question but I will not answer . However , I will just leave it for now and embrace each day as beautifully as I can . With hope in my heart , everything that I wish for, will become fit ( like a dress ) and I wait in glee as I journey with loads of love around me .. speaking of dresses , I saw one at Jaya Jusco .. simple cut and it has my name on it ... by the way it was screaming out for me ....!!!

with thanks and much love ..

I think this should be quite safe ......... I would like to thank all of my teachers for a wonderful job , its the everyday stuff that they do and for that I am truly greatful. As such , with all that has taken place and the news that I would be leaving my teachers in 3 weeks time , I think back on my humble beginnings as a teacher . How I managed through and faced every day head on ... From the unknown to the known . I remember going into my headmistress office , and each time that phrase catches my eye . At first I did not seem to understand what it meant , but over the years , it has played a part of who I am . MY journey as a teacher , was a very simple one . I remember getting my first class . It happened to be the slowest class . Right from the beginning , I was warned that my students were slow in everything that they did . I refused to see them as slow . I turned the tables around . I organized games , storytelling , quizzes the works and before the 6th month was up , my students were beaming with confidence . Confidence was the reason that I pushed harder to become a better teacher . Not the best but better . Along the way , I met many parents who were pleased as to how far their kids had improved . I gave hope to those who never believed in them . It was good . A very good feeling . A few years down , I had the pleasure of working with down syndrome children , autistic children , hyper active children and many more , These kids has taught me a lot . How to embrace life beautifully no matter what . I embrace their smiles , their hugs and all the little things that they say to me . It matters not how small the gesture is . It was never a dull moment when I am with my students. ... suddenly ..you grow up and wise up . Twenty years down the lane, I have come a long way. I have decided .. that I need a change in my life . I do not think that I will forget the years I spent teaching but life goes on . It's time to learn and take things as they are . My life as a kindergarten teacher will be coming to an end .... it is time for me to hang up my teaching cap.

ever you wonder

have you ever wondered that after all this time , that you just needed that one chance to change your life ? and how at that moment , you did not have all the answers and you just upped yourself and told yourself that you would throw everything out of the window . all u could ever think of , is finding that inner peace or rather that one thing that sums up your entire life . i mean , how you do it ? and you say , i have had enough of it and i want out ? is it too late to do it ? well , it could be a yes or a no or perhaps both . i just changed my tittle blog and i don't bother if anyone does not read it .. to say the least , my life is going to be one huge change and there is a lot ... i mean like a gazillion . see 20 years back down the lane , i was this boring person , i followed all the rules , went to work , work i did , came home , talked , spent time watching the tele and that was it . i did not go out clubbing , just stayed at home .. holidays were minimal and i did not bother very much . i did all of the above and one day i just woke up ..... 20 years too late ? well , late is never too late right ? in life everything has its process . so here i am 20 years on and i got to thinking .. what did i really achieve in life ? if i were to say nothing much , i'd be lying and you know it !!!!!! so in all fairness to myself , i would say i achieved a lot . but what if i told you that i am going to make another change in my life and step out of my comfort zone ? first things first ,it would be like , you had this long hair kinda style for many years and now you want a pixie haircut .. its like saying , that's it, no more coffee for you just water !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! or better still it would be like asking your golden retriever to go be a poodle !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! go figure . so i am the pilot of my life and i steer my life .. any suggestions or ideas , please take a back seat !!!!!!!!!!!! now , buckle up cos it's gonna be one hell of a ride

it's raining and how's the head ....

today was one of the best day of my life ... it rained on it was a saturday ... i did not have to go to work ... but i did actually ..usually , i would complain and say how unfair life is . i like it when it rains and it's not a working day ..i get to lie in extra loads and just laze ..... but alas, all good things must come to an end .. but today was exceptional ... it was the most amazing day of my life and i love everyone around me .... regardless of what ever the week may have been ...rain ..... , how wonderful .... today my nap was beautiful ... soundless sleep , and i could hear the patters of the rain against my window .. i felt cold and i did not want it to ever end i dreamed that i was i this wonderful place where it was just peaceful . whatever , that i was feeling in my head , cleared off as soon as i heard the rain ... perhaps next time , when the rain decides to come again , i would be on a holiday ..how nice just to curl up in bed now only with a good book but a nice time to just be me and with me ...

on eagles wings

<blockquote>..... make you to shine like the sun , an hold you in the palms of his hands ... today is the day i celebrated my birthday ... not with parties and friends but more of thoughts of others who are less fortunate than me .. i started the day as normal .. as normal as i would ... usually i would be jumping up and down because i have to wait fora long time for my birthday to come .... i guess you could say that the kid in me is still around ... i wanted it not to be special .. i just don't know why .. maybe i have out grown my birthday .. however i had this feeling of hope of wanting something more than a birthday and deep down i had mixed feelings .. i think or i may know the reason why ... it's because that i have a lot of appointments with the hospital and i am dreading my op in december , for crying out loud it;s just to remove my tonsils ................. it has that nagging feeling at the back of my mind ... i will try not to think about it too much . on the other hand , i received many wonderful wishes from friends and relatives , near and far .. i was thankful for them .. just 3 days ago , my neighbor's baby swallowed in a tiny toy , it was a quiet day .. i was online with my sister and my parents were watching the tele ...we heard screams , i panicked ... the baby went all limp like a rag doll .... i could not sleep that night , thinking of the baby .. i was praying that he would be ok . it has been 3 days and there is no sigh of the baby . but i am hoping for him to be well ... just 20 minutes ago i happened to read a blog .. it 's about a lovely couple with 2 young children who lost her husband . i read her post . i re read it again , and i could not believe how a young man with so much energy , just collapsed like that .... i felt sad .. as i read on , the memories that they shared was beautiful . my heart goes out to the 2 little girls .. do i feel lucky ? in so many ways i do .. cake or no cake , birthday or no birthday , i should feel blessed and lucky for what i have and the people that surrounds it .

so

i was thinking about my students today and how far they have gotten along not only me,being their teacher but also along with their friends . as we plodded along month after month , i can finally say that the time to say goodbye to them will come soon .


looking at their faces , and how i will miss them, made think about, when i was little too ...when i was little , i did not have anything to worry about .all i ever did was play and play i did ..



no worries , go ahead just play in fact , forget about homework , just go play ..those were the simple days that i remember so well . until i decided to be a grown up and i had no choice and it was not by choice !!!


and here i am now , looking at my students and very soon 10 years down the road , they too will have to grow up ......

so with all of these and what a stressful life we lead .. i just want to thank my students for hanging out with me and also thanks for reminding me that girls just wanna have fun !!!!

do you need dusting?

do you need dusting ? well, i am in need of a spring cleaning myself .. it's good to do it once in awhile .... a bit of dusting here and there and just like a car and your car , we can now cuci the engine and whatever else that needs cleaning ..


it's just like a speck of dust that gets into your eye and how even so , as we try to get that one speck of dust out ,we may never seem too and how that one tiny speck is visible and then , comes along a friend .. what do you know .. that friend has taken out the speck for you .. amazing isn't it?


so, we gratefully thank that friend for removing the speck ... so , what is in for you ? one might question this and perhaps has a fit , standing too close to an electrical wire and we go yeoooowwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


that's it daisy .. come home , atta girl !!!!!!!!!!!!!

all too soon , we find ourselves standing alone and waiting for that one moment . one special moment where we forget ourselves and just let go...


speaking of letting go ... it's not something that we can easily do ...and when we finally do , what then can a speck do ?


maybe it just flies down to the ground and be a speck ..... till you come and pick it up .