on eagles wings

<blockquote>..... make you to shine like the sun , an hold you in the palms of his hands ... today is the day i celebrated my birthday ... not with parties and friends but more of thoughts of others who are less fortunate than me .. i started the day as normal .. as normal as i would ... usually i would be jumping up and down because i have to wait fora long time for my birthday to come .... i guess you could say that the kid in me is still around ... i wanted it not to be special .. i just don't know why .. maybe i have out grown my birthday .. however i had this feeling of hope of wanting something more than a birthday and deep down i had mixed feelings .. i think or i may know the reason why ... it's because that i have a lot of appointments with the hospital and i am dreading my op in december , for crying out loud it;s just to remove my tonsils ................. it has that nagging feeling at the back of my mind ... i will try not to think about it too much . on the other hand , i received many wonderful wishes from friends and relatives , near and far .. i was thankful for them .. just 3 days ago , my neighbor's baby swallowed in a tiny toy , it was a quiet day .. i was online with my sister and my parents were watching the tele ...we heard screams , i panicked ... the baby went all limp like a rag doll .... i could not sleep that night , thinking of the baby .. i was praying that he would be ok . it has been 3 days and there is no sigh of the baby . but i am hoping for him to be well ... just 20 minutes ago i happened to read a blog .. it 's about a lovely couple with 2 young children who lost her husband . i read her post . i re read it again , and i could not believe how a young man with so much energy , just collapsed like that .... i felt sad .. as i read on , the memories that they shared was beautiful . my heart goes out to the 2 little girls .. do i feel lucky ? in so many ways i do .. cake or no cake , birthday or no birthday , i should feel blessed and lucky for what i have and the people that surrounds it .

so

i was thinking about my students today and how far they have gotten along not only me,being their teacher but also along with their friends . as we plodded along month after month , i can finally say that the time to say goodbye to them will come soon .


looking at their faces , and how i will miss them, made think about, when i was little too ...when i was little , i did not have anything to worry about .all i ever did was play and play i did ..



no worries , go ahead just play in fact , forget about homework , just go play ..those were the simple days that i remember so well . until i decided to be a grown up and i had no choice and it was not by choice !!!


and here i am now , looking at my students and very soon 10 years down the road , they too will have to grow up ......

so with all of these and what a stressful life we lead .. i just want to thank my students for hanging out with me and also thanks for reminding me that girls just wanna have fun !!!!

do you need dusting?

do you need dusting ? well, i am in need of a spring cleaning myself .. it's good to do it once in awhile .... a bit of dusting here and there and just like a car and your car , we can now cuci the engine and whatever else that needs cleaning ..


it's just like a speck of dust that gets into your eye and how even so , as we try to get that one speck of dust out ,we may never seem too and how that one tiny speck is visible and then , comes along a friend .. what do you know .. that friend has taken out the speck for you .. amazing isn't it?


so, we gratefully thank that friend for removing the speck ... so , what is in for you ? one might question this and perhaps has a fit , standing too close to an electrical wire and we go yeoooowwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


that's it daisy .. come home , atta girl !!!!!!!!!!!!!

all too soon , we find ourselves standing alone and waiting for that one moment . one special moment where we forget ourselves and just let go...


speaking of letting go ... it's not something that we can easily do ...and when we finally do , what then can a speck do ?


maybe it just flies down to the ground and be a speck ..... till you come and pick it up .

choices

we all have choices to make and to take ... what if it was a bad decision ? how would i react to the choices that i made ? i guess there is no room for me to worry about the choices that i made .


most of the times , it eats me up inside , but i guess we are human after all .. i used to feel pretty bad and low but i know deep down that i have to move on ... it does not matter who i upset , as long as i made that one choice and move on .. easier said than done .


i guess with a lot of prayers and more prayers i will come to make a better choice in my life .. it's not about dragging others into it but just make that one right choice and move along .

whats up

today was a busy day for me .. my feet aches and i wish there was a genie somewhere to give me a good foot massage .. but sadly to say the genie took off .!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my poor feet .

or maybe i should just take a walk and perhaps with luck , i might fin a magic wand .. and then i could wish for whatever i want ..how nice !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



today in school , we had only 3 puteri duyung who wanted to have splash time ..3 that's right you read right . they ha the pool all to themselves . i felt like jumping in myself but what am i to do ... stay on the sidelines and shut up ... sigh !!!!!!!


today is friday ... school is out for only 2 days it's better than nothing ..... one week ahead and dance week is ahead .



so what is in store for me ...................... sleep and nothing ..

get ME down

You tried to get me down and you did it ,
I let you and I was not strong ;
You caught me offguard , I let my guard down.

You pushed me an I stumble upon a rocky hill;
Down I went, I was afraid for I could not see nor feel;
How stupid I was to allow you in .

Get out!!!!
I don't need you in my life. I never did.
How I was , it was because I let you in .

A friend , you are not.
It took an angel to pick me up,
To see where I went wrong ;
I know............
You lie and make fear whole .

And so, I say get out , stop lying , I am not afraid of you,
I don't need you , you are nothing

bUT.................



........ a speck of dust in my eye , you mean nothing to me .. leave forever and never return .

energy went out

Today I will be typing the real way !! What is the real way you ask ? Forget real , my life is real and the devil tried to get me but he got burned .............. badly too, at that .

Forget the devil .

As I was telling my friend , how time flies ... It's July .So what ? It will be time for me to say goodbye to my students once again. They have learnt , and now they can't stop yakking .. and one day soon enough , they would be answering the phone !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh how they talk , they talk about many things and one particular hot topic , FACEBOOK

Girl:'Wei , kau ada facebook ?'
Boy : 'Ada'.
Girl:'Kita nak add kau boleh?'
Boy ;'Boleh'.'Bagila email nanti balik add la'.



It does not stop there , it finally comes round to the class teacher as well. And what with games and scores who could keep up with them . As long as they don't forget their Dictation next week , I am okay with it . Networking starts when you're six .. hey , who am I to stop ..............