my turn

these past few days has been a breeze and my lowest ebb .. mind you , it's something that i have to live with .. it was not easy for me and i was struggling ... but i managed . i felt lousy too an i just wanted to crawl and hide away and just forget everything ...

i am not only a person but i am only human and i can only take so much . i was looking for a friend that i could talk to , just to get it out and move on ... i found that friend and she told me to move on , learn from my mistakes , don't live with regret , it will eat me up one day ... what has passed leave it be .


those were very comforting words and i spent the whole day thinking of what i said and did , i prayed and ask god to forgive me . i felt a tug in my heart and i just wanted to run away from everything .


but i have people who love me and they kept assuring me and telling me that it's okay to falter and in time, i should be on the right track . for the past one week i was a zombie .. i could not eat and i was worried about many things .



i wanted that feeling in my heart to go away , i have to let go .. i could not do it and i was wondering if this was the end of me . not only did i feel the pain in me but i felt upset too. i have learned a valuable lesson and i know better now.

the day of today itself

holidays are coming to an end and so once again i look forward to seeing my students .. or perhaps not? it has truly been a wonderful two weeks with doing nothing !!

that aside , i actually spent a week in church for our parish mission talks ... then into the second week i, i popped by just to visit teachers who were on duty .


i spent the remaining holidays crocheting a runner and it should have come out better than i thought but then again practice makes perfect .... so i would be starting on another runner pretty soon ,,,, that aside,i may need to log on to you tube for some tutorials and then i am done ....


so much for the holidays ....i should be thankful for the 2 weeks break ... we'll see what takes place in my class ...

lappy my love

the other day i send in my lappy to the shop for reformatting and i would say that the tech did a good job ,... i have a back up system now and i was trying or i tried only half way to transfer it into my pen drive and speaking of pen drive , i may need to get a good one as i am afraid this one has been infected with virus ....


so now that my lappy is back with me , i am in business .. of blogging .. i missed so may days of blogging and today i thought that i'd start with one ...

but as we all know since the blog is about my lappy , on the side holidays has been pretty quiet for me ... but a spiritfull and spirit filled one at the same time .... next week would be another week , hopefully i get some playtime along the way ..


speaking of play after the holidays , we're going to japan ....

shepherd

...a shepherd boy cried wolf and told the farmers that a wolf ate one of his sheep...

...said the shepherd boy to the mighty king , do you see what i see...?


it is not easy being a shepherd to a flock of sheep. what do we do if one went astray ? do we just leave it alone , or do we do like what Jesus did ? i guess being a shepherd or a leader has it's ups and downs .. for if we , remember each and everyone of our sheep by name , then we must be accountable for everyone of them.


Jesus was responsible for his flock and when one went missing , he went high and low searching for the missing one and when he found the sheep , he carried the sheep over his shoulders and brought it home .


if we could just do what jesus did , our world would be a better place where everyone cared for each other . we were chosen for a reason . a reason to live with humbleness towards everyone .

maybe we should all become shepherds to lead our flock to greener pastures .

football

yesterday ,was my first time viewing a football match between MU and Blackburn .. seriously speaking i would not pay money to watch it .. i rather sleep , eat or pray ....yesterday was special and different .


my bro in law came for a visit and we took him out and us too for dinner ,and he was telling us that there was a good match on astro .. we actually watched the football match at the restaurant and since we had no goals yet , we decided to head back home to watch the game ..

i was surprised with myself because i actually enjoyed it and if Rooney had not gotten that penalty kick .. habis .... but i did watch the whole game through and that was the first .. we spent quality time together as a family watching football!!!!!


i guess if i had a group of friends I'd watch but who knows, i might just tune in to watch more football matches !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

how i have been ?

everything has been so crazy lately that i decided to only do one thing for these past few days that is ....... sleep .... the only thing that i could think of ....


i felt like i was on soft clouds and all i could think of was sleep ..... besides sleep , i thought about things .... many things and the best part was, it was all about happy thoughts .... everything else seems to be at a stop ... with hundred and one things creeping into my brain , i guess i just wanted to take what i only wanted ... happy memories .... that will get me through ....


as for what lies ahead , nothing much but i hope that it will be more joyous days to come and some fun filled days thrown in too ...

we attended mass yesterday being a feast day and among those thousands who attended , i saw this family whom we used to see when we attended church in St Joseph ... it was nice seeing them after so long and i used to remember how each saturday , this family would sit at the back us in church ... and how we saw their grandchild from a baby and now he is an altar server .. how times flies and speaking of time .... i got to get my hair coloured .. the whites can be seen and i look old ....

how i have been ?