16 days and I survived

Ok 16 days and I am still surviving .................... as a principal .. Let me start from the beginning . The orientation was a breeze .... no it was chaotic !!!! The screaming and the crying ... I almost gave up . What the hell was I even thinking that I could pull off something so simple ? I wanted to run away and I don't know if I would be a good leader ...


So from a day , it went to a week and things started to kick off . It went on the the second week and that was fine until .... we had this mum who was so upset over nothing .

The 3rd week will be tomorrow . I do not know what is instore for me and my teachers but I would'nt let it bother me very much . Okay here is the game plan .. Put a deaf ear on everything that needs to be complained . How if I would just stare at the parents, with daggers in my eyes and that way they would zip thier mouths before they even think of opening them ?


Now that's cruel . Our mission statement said it all ; so develope each child , to respect and to uphold integrity and smile even though you heart is breaking . No that was not what it said . In the mean time I think I'd go offline now and just watch Run Fat Boy, Run .

WHy was I given to you ?

Most of the time , I used to ask myself this question , Why was I given to my parents ? Then , I would ask myself again , what good would I do being in this family ? For years I have thought about it and just the other day , I was wondering again.


So , after growing in my family and with years of happiness , I think I am allowed to say that the reason I was given into this family is because , I brought joy to them . I say this on behalf of my sister as well .. I mean we we not the over acheiver in school , but we did the most normal stuff that any normal kids would .

I guess also that as a unit , we moved as one and we got closer and closer to each other . We are blessed to be given good parents who taught us the simpleness of everything and life too. So would I wanna change siblings and parents ?


No way , I would want to have the same mum and dad , sister , two god sons and same brother in law .. Why ? Because they have known you already .

Crazy or just eight CRAZYnights!

It has nothing to do with the movie , Eight Crazy Nights , featuring my good friend Adam Sandler . I feel it's like eight crazy nights, because I have been working non stop .. this is crazy and mind you just a few days ago no , no three weeks ago , I was telling the whole wide world , that I'd rather spend time working than sitting at home ....



.....and now it's plain crazy ... so there I was at work , working and working and I just really can't wait to crash ... okay easier said than done ... there is something that I need to do before I really crash my brains out . Why is it that I have to make sure that everything is perfect ? Virgo habits I suppose .....

Today in school ,
I sat till I hurt and there I was trying to talk to my asst. principal , and all i got was a blank stare from her .. we did not sit down to talk till about 3 pm ...

Tomorrow is a meeting with the teachers , and there I go again .. bla .. bla .. bla .. like as if they will listen to me .

Hey , wait a minute , I am the boss so they have to listen to me !!!!! Yay !!

How Should I do this ?

It has come to my attention .. that a certain someone has ...................................................................................... I am leaving a blank .... but why even bother to post right , I mean I have to get it out of my chest .. Okay if this does not make any sense to all of you , it's okay .. however it will to me ..

I can say it's after Christmas and all , but then you have to go and handle this delicate situation .. every pair of eyes are on me .. Say the wrong thing . I am dead , say the right thing , I will be dead as well ..... I know it's hard to say the least .

This I got to figure out , as I blog my heart starts to beat and I have not taken any action yet , now why is that ?

Cruel , I am already feeling it .. It's like rubbing salt to the wound . Yes, in the spirit of Christmas . Isn't it suppose to a time of giving and humbling oneself ? It soes not seem so .

I know I have to pray tonight for guidence ..

Nervous

This is it . I tell you boy, have I been so nervous . I prayed for this day would never come . It has arrived .. 8 days ago and mind you , I was too nervous to even blog . I panicked . I took a deep breath and told myself that I can do this .

So , what have I learned for the past 8 days ? I learned how to count , write vouchers , talk to parents , handled difficult parents and the list goes on .

At times , I am so afraid and I find myself shivering ..but that's normal according to some . Some even said said that it's like riding a bike ... Hah !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! There is just so much to do .... How ?

So I decided to get organized , eventhough my class looks like a hurricane went through .. I am hanging on .... then , I have people counting on me , decisions to make and take . Why ? Well it's because I am the choosen one .....

It's a lot to bear but i will hang on .....

This Christmas

With the tree up and all , I have not had a breather . Not because we were so busy baking it was me working 247 in school and it has only been 8 days .. straight days .. I really need space .. aiyo , baru 8 hari into the job ...

Anyway as usual everything in my life should go with a prayer .. even when I am engaged with a parent , I still take time to ask God to gouide me . So far he has doen a good job and seriously I should give HIM a clap ..


So this year will be Seeking Jesus Through The Family ... it's not outdated yet ( the tag line ) however , we have come to a point that this year is for the family or should I say familia . Thing is we always celebrate with others , where we invite friends over . We were thinking .. why not for this year and the years to come , let us celebrate within the family .

I guess it would be more meaningful . Just us , talk , laugh and enjoy the celebration and the season as a family .

Why ?

I was wondering and pondering as to why I have this feeling in my heart .. like a tug that will not go away . I mean I am never quick to judge .. but I just can't seem to figure out this person . I try hard and I asked Jesus to let me see him in others but for this one person ,it's not working at all .


I try , I say please , let me see you in others .. In others I can but why not this person ? I think I am trying too hard . I should let it go and let the feeling of being able to talk to this person comes naturally .

No , it's not about hate . Nothing about that at all . Why am I so impossible ? Christmas is just around the corner , should i try again to be humble ? I just don't know the answer . Perhaps only time will tell .

HATE is a little seed that stays inside you . It eats you a little by little and then whole however ,LOVE is universal , when it stays in you , it will overcome HATE and then we will be WHOLE again .