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i was thinking about my students today and how far they have gotten along not only me,being their teacher but also along with their friends . as we plodded along month after month , i can finally say that the time to say goodbye to them will come soon .


looking at their faces , and how i will miss them, made think about, when i was little too ...when i was little , i did not have anything to worry about .all i ever did was play and play i did ..



no worries , go ahead just play in fact , forget about homework , just go play ..those were the simple days that i remember so well . until i decided to be a grown up and i had no choice and it was not by choice !!!


and here i am now , looking at my students and very soon 10 years down the road , they too will have to grow up ......

so with all of these and what a stressful life we lead .. i just want to thank my students for hanging out with me and also thanks for reminding me that girls just wanna have fun !!!!

do you need dusting?

do you need dusting ? well, i am in need of a spring cleaning myself .. it's good to do it once in awhile .... a bit of dusting here and there and just like a car and your car , we can now cuci the engine and whatever else that needs cleaning ..


it's just like a speck of dust that gets into your eye and how even so , as we try to get that one speck of dust out ,we may never seem too and how that one tiny speck is visible and then , comes along a friend .. what do you know .. that friend has taken out the speck for you .. amazing isn't it?


so, we gratefully thank that friend for removing the speck ... so , what is in for you ? one might question this and perhaps has a fit , standing too close to an electrical wire and we go yeoooowwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


that's it daisy .. come home , atta girl !!!!!!!!!!!!!

all too soon , we find ourselves standing alone and waiting for that one moment . one special moment where we forget ourselves and just let go...


speaking of letting go ... it's not something that we can easily do ...and when we finally do , what then can a speck do ?


maybe it just flies down to the ground and be a speck ..... till you come and pick it up .

choices

we all have choices to make and to take ... what if it was a bad decision ? how would i react to the choices that i made ? i guess there is no room for me to worry about the choices that i made .


most of the times , it eats me up inside , but i guess we are human after all .. i used to feel pretty bad and low but i know deep down that i have to move on ... it does not matter who i upset , as long as i made that one choice and move on .. easier said than done .


i guess with a lot of prayers and more prayers i will come to make a better choice in my life .. it's not about dragging others into it but just make that one right choice and move along .

whats up

today was a busy day for me .. my feet aches and i wish there was a genie somewhere to give me a good foot massage .. but sadly to say the genie took off .!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my poor feet .

or maybe i should just take a walk and perhaps with luck , i might fin a magic wand .. and then i could wish for whatever i want ..how nice !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



today in school , we had only 3 puteri duyung who wanted to have splash time ..3 that's right you read right . they ha the pool all to themselves . i felt like jumping in myself but what am i to do ... stay on the sidelines and shut up ... sigh !!!!!!!


today is friday ... school is out for only 2 days it's better than nothing ..... one week ahead and dance week is ahead .



so what is in store for me ...................... sleep and nothing ..

get ME down

You tried to get me down and you did it ,
I let you and I was not strong ;
You caught me offguard , I let my guard down.

You pushed me an I stumble upon a rocky hill;
Down I went, I was afraid for I could not see nor feel;
How stupid I was to allow you in .

Get out!!!!
I don't need you in my life. I never did.
How I was , it was because I let you in .

A friend , you are not.
It took an angel to pick me up,
To see where I went wrong ;
I know............
You lie and make fear whole .

And so, I say get out , stop lying , I am not afraid of you,
I don't need you , you are nothing

bUT.................



........ a speck of dust in my eye , you mean nothing to me .. leave forever and never return .

energy went out

Today I will be typing the real way !! What is the real way you ask ? Forget real , my life is real and the devil tried to get me but he got burned .............. badly too, at that .

Forget the devil .

As I was telling my friend , how time flies ... It's July .So what ? It will be time for me to say goodbye to my students once again. They have learnt , and now they can't stop yakking .. and one day soon enough , they would be answering the phone !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh how they talk , they talk about many things and one particular hot topic , FACEBOOK

Girl:'Wei , kau ada facebook ?'
Boy : 'Ada'.
Girl:'Kita nak add kau boleh?'
Boy ;'Boleh'.'Bagila email nanti balik add la'.



It does not stop there , it finally comes round to the class teacher as well. And what with games and scores who could keep up with them . As long as they don't forget their Dictation next week , I am okay with it . Networking starts when you're six .. hey , who am I to stop ..............

my turn

these past few days has been a breeze and my lowest ebb .. mind you , it's something that i have to live with .. it was not easy for me and i was struggling ... but i managed . i felt lousy too an i just wanted to crawl and hide away and just forget everything ...

i am not only a person but i am only human and i can only take so much . i was looking for a friend that i could talk to , just to get it out and move on ... i found that friend and she told me to move on , learn from my mistakes , don't live with regret , it will eat me up one day ... what has passed leave it be .


those were very comforting words and i spent the whole day thinking of what i said and did , i prayed and ask god to forgive me . i felt a tug in my heart and i just wanted to run away from everything .


but i have people who love me and they kept assuring me and telling me that it's okay to falter and in time, i should be on the right track . for the past one week i was a zombie .. i could not eat and i was worried about many things .



i wanted that feeling in my heart to go away , i have to let go .. i could not do it and i was wondering if this was the end of me . not only did i feel the pain in me but i felt upset too. i have learned a valuable lesson and i know better now.