the usual do and the day ahead

today my throat feels fine , i have to more tablets to get through for tomorrow ... i just can't..... wait

yesterday , i came home from work and my parents told me that my sister and brother in law will be coming over .. i was excited and i proudly told them that i will wait patiently for them to come and i even told them that i would stay up as long as my eyes could stay opened !!!!!


however that did not happen , i was lulled by the comfort of my bed and i went to sleep!!!!!!!

i slept for a long time , it was humid too .... but it was okay .. all i could think of that my sister and my brother in law is coming and i can't wait to wake up the next day to chat with them ...



as i was so deep in sleep , or so i thought , i felt someone holding my arms .... i like to sleep with my arms folded .... then there was a slight press urging me to wake up .....


i saw my sister , blur from sleep ..i took 5 seconds to figure out what was happening and why was she in my room!!!!!!


i thought that it was still 10 pm and that i had not slept that long ... i asked her when did she arrive , and she just said .. just now ... i asked her is it 10 ? it was not 10 alright , it was 1.30 am ....


i tried to toss and turn but i could not sleep .. they were talking .. i woke up , went to the toilet .. it was 2.30 am ... so i must have tossed and turned for an hour .... went outside to the hall ... had a chat with her and my bro in law ... we watched Robocop ..... and i slept at 3.30 am .... woke up at 6am.. showered , got ready and went to work .... UN SLEEPY !!!!!!




everything went on fine .. the kids were great ... work was okay teachers were excellent 12.30 pm , went for an appreciation lunch .. in Sri KDU ...with the other principals .... reached home at 3.50 pm ...... that's it for the day ...

crowded room

the crowded room was one of my favorite place in the whole wide world and with a book ....its where everything just goes on as it is with no one stopping you in mid air . it's also a place to be yourself and you forget everything just for awhile ..



it starts with a book in hand , a glass of soda and cookies and milk for much , much later and even during Christmas .. we go on .. with eyes wide open .. others may see but they can never touch ..


we stand , together , being pushed together in a tight spot.. then, there is space for movement .. we stand in a row ..we walk... hand in hand with the one we love and trust .. everything will be fine ..


we get to another spot on top of a hill ..looking down with huge eyes , on a hill up in the sky where the faraway is .. with a book in hand , we walk ...


stop!!!!!!!! we come to a stop .. why are we stopping ? we seem to ask one another .. walk on .. with a book in hand , we forge on.. lane ..

a narrow lane , we can't go through .. even with a book in hand .. throw it all.. throw the books away ..

we throw them away ..the sky breaks blue hues ..we look to the heavens .. we see doves , doves come to save us ... raise your hands ....we raise our hands , the doves fly over us, low enough to swoop us to eternity ...

the day i got mad and upset

the day i got mad and upset everything was sent flying .... in my mind's eye .... i was hot and fired up ... i was not approachable at all.... i did not show it ... i had to stay calm ..


well, that was one of those days .. right now i don't know what to think ... how could this slipped through my fingers .. i let my guard down .. i am not weak , i am only human ... i am not proud of the decision that i have made ... but i had no choice ...

many were upset by my choice , the choice to do right .. and make a wrong, right ... to understand to its finest detail was all it took ....

i am not made of stone , i have a heart with fire in it .. the fire to succeed ... to do well, to be the best , to aim high .. with pride i make my journey .. no matter how rough it gets i have to hang on for the sake of others .... tempers fly off the rail .. tomorrow will be a brand new day ....

a day filled with hope and courage into the next realm ..... for there i seek and i found , not only that i found myself , i found others who would follow me ...

today the day i did not feel like it at all

today was one of my laziest day in school ... after what 5 to 6 days .. my throat still hurts and i was just being lazy ..... usually after 12 pm ... i take over a friend's class until she comes in ..... so during that time it's usually sing a long and today my sing a long session did not go down so well because i was irritated with the pain in my throat ... i felt like ripping out my tonsils .... aiyo !!!!


so then i thought I'd get out a picture conversation chart to get the class going ... and i did it quite well... topic for the day; THe Playground ... the all time favorite .. well what can i say....


then , it was time for the kids to practice their alphabets ..... wrote it down on the white board , asked them the phonetic sound of it and then it was time for writing ..... as i was plodding along , my friend came and she then took over .....that would be say about 12.45 or so ...


lunch time .. food .. oh gosh!!!!! i usually bring food from the home .... my food has been bland ... very bland for the past few days .... i can't take it .. i don't even eat breakfast .. i am tired of eating .. there is no taste when i eat .. i just swallow every morsel that i can ......


then this is the part where i felt lazy .... usually i am not like this ... but it's like after 3 years and then today was the first day and the first time i felt like this .

at the back of my mind i knew that
i had books to correct , accounts to close and other things ..little things that i had to do .. but instead i went to the other building to see my assistant and then when i saw my ustazah and another friend chatting , i went to join them for awhile .....


there was a book on the table titled .. bangun oh!!! bangun ..... and we began talking about the book and i was telling them about Sean Covey among other things...and that led to the topic of khawin and jodoh ...... see, usually i do not spend time doing all these talk ... but today was different ..... but for that hour i spent talking , i really felt relaxed ....



by the time i went to correct my books , it was just nice .....then i found that i really could do with a break from time to time ....

so far the journey continues with antibiotics ..

my throat has its days and today being a holiday , i will not even utter a word !!! and how does my throat feel about it ..with me being silent for awhile .... ????? well throat you make me suffer and sick ....


for now it is still sore , i can't swallow well.. at times when there is no pain , I'd go yay!!! but after a few hours , it comes back .. so should i just remove it ? breathing has been a little difficult too .... when i am awake its OK but usually when it's tome to go to bed that i dread :( well i would just have to be patient and wait till i get well ....


well.... what can i say

lies , a lie and a white lie

what would you do if you found out that a friend lied to you ? would you be angry ? i am sure you would ... do like what i did .. do not show anger or any emotions .... just leave .. for now ....


why do we take leave from work ? we take them when we have an appointment , emergencies and it could be a whole lot of other stuffs ... seriously speaking i only can vouch for myself as for others .. well we are no mind readers and we do not know how they think .... one thing is for sure ... when we lie , we do not only lie to ourselves .. we lie the the one up above .. same goes for cheating ....


to tell you the truth , i was not surprised ... not even one for one second .... what goes around comes around ...... so a lie is a lie , lies are more lies and a white lie is just an excuse ..... why bother ....

aiyo !!!!

before the Chinese new year holidays started , i came down with very not so bad tonsillitis ...ok never mind .. went to the clinic i was given amoxcilin ..1000 mg .. i took it a few times which it was very much indeed my fault and thinking that the swelling has gone down , i happily carried on with my life .. fine ... no yee sang and sweet meat ... fine ..


4 more days before school reopens .... had another tonsillitis attack ... this one was worse .. this was the mother of all attacks that i thought i never had and now at the back of my mind i am thinking about the brayuk session that i had to forgo in order to get back home ... ok never mind no choice kan ...


this time ..no fever .. cough .... can't breathe properly and my tonsils seem to kiss each other , and i think by the time valentine's day approaches , they would kiss ....... ok it's a joke ...


went to see the doctor again .... yep ... had a good lecture but .... that is now so far away from my mind ... this time .. injection , antibiotics another brand ...same 1000 mg for 10 days .. my doctor punished me .. no choice ....

the jab was ok but after a while ,
my whole arm felt like someone had ripped it off !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! then i went back to work ...yes i did .. and that was the day we were to travel down to Malacca ....


and when i came home .. we packed and headed off to Malacca ... well i had to get out of KL .. yes i was sick and now , today, i still have not recovered yet .. my throat feels sore ... can't swallow well... need lots of fluid and yes happy valentine's day ...