so many and that one ...

i actually wanted to post in my blog for the past few days, however i was swamped with work and there were issues that i had to deal with ... some were easy and some were tough ....it came to the extent that i just wanted to throw my work all out of the window ....



these past few days has been a blur for me , i was aware in my mind's eye as to what i need to do , but everything was just thrown in my way and i felt like screaming ...or maybe putting a stop to every single thing in my life.. and just breakaway .....


it depends on how one looks at life and how one approaches it .. keep it simple , like my dad used to tell me all the time . maybe i need that one second change and then everything would get better .. what kind of change ? it could be many changes or just that one change in my everyday life..


where is this leading me to ? perhaps i just got to dig deeper in me to find the one answer that i am looking for .. perhaps i just not do anyting at all and let nature takes its course ....


i will never know if i don't find out .....

cookies , cream and everything nice ..

well it is that time of the year again where , my house smells of vanilla and butter cream it's as if you're in heaven .. i have ..no we have been baking non stop for the past week now , even after work , we'd get right down to baking ...


baking and cooking has been around in my household for the longest time .. and we find baking relaxing ... we forget everything ...

you know what ?

change of plans .. we have now decided to pipe rosettes with a dash of cherry for our cookies .... the best part is i get to pipe it !!!!

well , i hope this works out ...

make up and believe

i do not know how some individuals can make up stories and think of it as nothing .. it pisses me off to think that a person with such credibility and respect does it ... out goes my respect for these kind of individuals ..


i mean they not only say what they mean , they cook up stories which are not true and it is very upsetting however if we just avoid and ignore such tales ... then where do we stand ? this has to stop ... that is not all, they just go everywhere and cook up more stories ... in the end they not only hurt others but themselves too..

what do they achieve from all of this ? maybe they get power , show the weaker ones who is boss , boss people around , and make others fight because of it .


i hope those fakers out there start telling the truth by what you mean to say ..

i don't feel like blogging

i don't feel like blogging because i have nothing to say or talk about .. i feel sleepy and i need another break .... which is coming soon ...soon means soon ... then i have this feeling of ... i cannot find the word to it but i will carry on anyway and this is not making sense at all and since when does life makes any sense ?


then there is this feeling of , if i could just sleep in a hotel and have everyone serve me .... ok that is so not going to take place .

now , i have this nagging pain and throb over my shoulder blades ...what is it that makes me tick ... ok i think you better not read this post for i have to dash out again on a mission .. the mission is to send to two boys to their grandmas and after that more shopping minus the money ... heck .. since i do not feel like blogging today , i have already said too much ...

great december

not only did it rain cats and dogs today , i had a nice time in school .. not having fun , but had fun drawing and preparing charts for our classes ..

there were a few enquiries and some came over to make payments .. the day got better with the rain and it was cosy .. we were yawning away ...and there was no hantu .... a few days ago a few of my teachers were saying how they heard noises in the morning .. it could only mean one thing , i means sounds travel through anything right ?



like just the other day when i saw a shadow of a 5 year old boy . it appeared at the back of my friend's head .. i just told her .. 'hey tmk .. there is a boy behind you '...well all i can say is .. it's just your imagination ...

forgive

they said that in order to forgive is to forget .. how many of us can actually forget .. maybe some of us got hurt badly and we just could not find it in our hearts to forgive ..


how do we forgive ?


we could start by saying sorry and that is a start .. even to say sorry is so hard at times .. it's like a dent in your ego.. and then you feel that you have to admit it and everyone will then come know how weak you are ..

but aren't we all humans after all ?


sometimes , it's best not to say anything at all ...there is a Father in heaven who will always look down on us with love .. he forgives . are we willing to forgive ?

excited

i am excited regardless of what took place today .. today was just another day . i finally got my crystal beads and soon i will get to work on revamping my mum's rosary .. today i spend a good half hour removing the unwanted stuff especially the cappings for the rosary beads ..


however, the glass beads from the existing rosary will be recycled to make another rosary for me . they have lost their sparkle and i actually used my facial mask cream to wash and soak them for an hour .. believe me it worked ..


then i rinsed them in clear running water .. ( pipe water ) pat them dry a few times and .. ta....da .... they came out as shinning as ever ... and to those beads , i am using a pair of existing cross and center piece from Rome .... so everything will be recycled and made into another rosary .....


i am waiting to find the right time to get it done but i am taking my time because i want it to be special ...