cuti raya

on a lighter note i will be on leave for a week .. okay it's the best . i need rest , but i do not need a holiday . need i go the spa ? forget the spa , i just cannot imagine lying down and have some stranger massaging me .. no , no can do .. forget the spa ....


i almost forgot , i could eat a few chocolates which happens to be lying around in the fridge or i could eat my ikan satay and to hell with the whole wide world .... easier said than done ..

i am proud to say that i have already prepared my student's homework and i have nothing to do ... wrong .. i need to buy flowers for my ring .. no i am not getting married .. not even close .. its for my korean dance .. i can already imagine the headlines .. 'teacher makes it big in concert' yeah alright .. big time !!!


these are all stuff that i need to for my kids .. but is anyone doing anything for me ?seriously .. what about me .. never mind cuti raya or not ... i will be enjoying ketupat and rendag ............ selamat hari raya all ..

birthday everyday

yesterday was my birthday and so i am using lower case to post .. starting today that is .. i have no kuasa to even push down the shift button .. no more perfection it's what i will be doing ..

i wish that everyday was my birthday and so i have decided to have my birthday everyday . i felt the attention alright , i felt so special yesterday and i do not want it to end . after so long i cut my cake .. my own little cake .

today, is my birthday also .. i just wnat it to be and speaking of simple things i forgot to make a wish yesterday . is it too late to make one now ? but then again what can i wish for ?

god has helped and blessed my family and my frieends around me .. what more could a girl ask for !

age 38 , is just a number .. let's see my star sign said today , i would get what i have always wanted and yes i got a cake turn table ... hahha !!! hobby .. that aside , i am not much of a party girl , but i do know one thing , on my special day , i thank god for each day of my life .

perfect prefect

I just don't know this, but I have to say it here . I am a perfectionist .. there I said it .. I expect everyone to be on their toes and work fast . It does not happen that way unfortunately and for that, some may not want to work with me ... It has been so, for a long time and I guess , when I was working as a teacher , I was trained that way ..

The plus point is I get my work done and I will not let my anyone question me . So before they can ask , I have already completed a task . I try .. but I just cannot help it . I made some teachers upset and I expect them to work hard and aim high . Like I said sadly enough it does not work that way .

Why ?

I give 110% each time I am at work and I enjoy seeing my students and teachers succeed . Hard work always pays off .. now there is a but coming on right now . Some do not have the vision to succeed and the mission statement in their lives are so different from mine .

So what do I do ?

Ignore that fact that you don't have to work or know your stuff ?
Close one eye and just let it be ?
It's ok cos in the end you get nothing ? Which is right .

To hell with everyone and just bully everyone into working hard and harder ?


I just don't know .

The only thing I know is and can do is to keep my mouth shut . NOW , THAT I SIMPLY CANNOT DO !!!

9.41 as i saw it ...

It's 9.42 pm now , I am counting the hours .. excited nope .. it's just another simple day and it's my birthday tomorrow . The best part is, tomorrow will be the last day of school for our semester break ,hmmmm also in conjuction with the raya celebrations .. how cool can that be ?

Tomorrow, for breakfast , I will head on the the Kopitiam ,which is near to my school and get a nice breakfast for me and a friend . I guess you could say that we're gonna take the day slow and steady and when school reopens , it will be my firned's birthday .. yup the one who belanjaed me hahha .... then its my turn to belanja her .


38 .. I thank GOD for the 38 years of my life . It has not been so bad at all compared to what other people go through ... satisfied ? Yes and No, hahhha !! I guess one would never be happy with what we have .

Saturday is going to be a nice day . Will be attending a birthday party for a very cute baby and I will be leaving early to go to LMC to buy myself a cake turntable and a stainless steel scrapper for icing .. it's just a start .. we'll see .. maybe I need to get some flowers for a cake that I am going to bake for my cousin for Raya .. THinking of violet .. have not decided yet on the icing ...but it will be fun ....

half way there and then.....

Today as we got back from our daily market week , our neighbour from downstairs told us this , "Better go back to your country ,this is not your country." Okay , I thought someone must have gotten up from the wrong side of the bed. Anyway I found out what he meant ... okay from here I pretty much can guess that you know it too.

See when I was growing up , my teachers never once said any snide remarks to any of the students of my school and the friends that I went to school with , were so united . We were friends , played togehter and our parents never stopped us .


With time , we lost touch however we found each other again. What I am trying to say is , if we are to be 1 Malaysia it has to go all the way and not half way when everyone knows that the day for this 1 Malaysia is next month . All I can do is hope and pray that each party or whoever is involved will come forward, apologize and never do it again .


I pray that we have peace and harmony like what it used to be . I remember one time in the papers that tourits were so amazed by our country . We have so many ethnic groups , our colours are different but I am sure that the blood that flows in us are the same .

i dont' get it or i do ?

Today was not one of my best days for me . Bummer !! Right , I mean I always make sure that I have a good time in school today . I actually did have a good time , infact, I was having a whale of a good time .. till someone confronted me with something ..

Words were exchanged but I was not angry , I kept my cool and I expected that someone was far more understanding than I was . I have tolerated all I could. I don't show others what is bugging me and I try to do my best to please others and when I can't , I get stares and some may not agree with my decisions .


One thing I learned for sure is , when in school , forget what is in the house and when at home , forget what is in the school. I used to feel guilty when I first learned how to say NO .I could not concentrate on what I was doing and kept wondering if I made the right decision . But now I don't anymore. I can say NO and not feel guily . Now, is this because I am growing up ? Or is it because of the position that I am in now feels like second skin?


I do not know all of the answers but I am trying to understand human behaviour patterns ... One minutes they are okay and the next they are not.

So , I think I would just go and have some spring rolls and just forget about everything .

Lady Gagak Malaysia

THis cute thing happened today when I was in my tuition class . Today was a pretty slow day and I guess it's due to the fasting month and manybe the kids could not wake up ..

I had 2 boys today in class and I knew it was going to be a long day .. see I need the girls to come in as well so that I would not feel sleepy ... okay another lame excuse .So after half an hour,3 girls came . I was spared ..



One of the girls came in with a pair of aviator sunglasses with a white frame.She sellteld down and began her work .Very steadily , she put on her aviator sunglasses on and she looked like a superstar......



Casually I asked her , 'Hey, you macam superstar ah !!. "Tak la teacher , kakak saya kata saya ni macam Lady Gagak !!.

Well , that is a nice way of putting it .. Lady Gagak ...indeed .

Then , I told her this ,'Nadhira , bulan puasa kena tutup aurat tau , kan bulan puasa ".

This is what she told me , "Ala , teacher tok sah lah jadi uztazah boleh tak ?'.

I was just observing her and this little girl just wanted to be a fashionista and she just wnated to let her hair down . I admire her stand for it .