Faith

Today in church , we had a sharing by the RCIA participants . What got me listening to ,was when the candidate said that she did not believe in God because she had no faith and now after attending the RCIA she knows the truth that god does exist in some little way because she had faith .


I was upset yesterday because my faith was ofline , to me I guess it's normal . For some reason , I was upset and I said all kinds of things. And I did not care . But I do care ... ( this care bug came in after I let off steam infront of my mum ) . To tell you the truth , I really felt like a huge lump just left my chest. I got it all out .

Yes,my faith in my friend was ofline because of what I saw that made me so sad .It's okay I kept telling myself. Then I thought hard about my faith and how saw I was . I then thought of Jesus dying on the cross for me and my sins . He had it worse , nails, thorns , whipped and he was left to die because of me .

The pain that HE endured was far more worse than what I felt .By comparison what I felt was nothing . It was just a small matter and I made it into a big thing .So I know now that whatever happens , I have people who love me all around . What Jesus did was far more harder.

So am I going to give up without a fight ? NEVER and I am here to stay, for I will look to the heavens and hence my help shall come .

It Ain't Heavy , It's my makan

As usual,the time has come that my dad receives his monthly pension. And... once again the three of us would go shopping for our monthly groceries ... and we do have a nice time walking in Tesco . Along they way , usually we would bump into friends , old friends , aunties , uncles , grandpas , grandmas , cousins , godsisters and brothers and yes, the list just goes on and on.


Each time when we go, we will split into three groups and also we try to outdo each other to see who can carry the most barang !!! Also along the way again , we have all of the shoppers cheering for us .. ha! ha!


Moving along , until the counter , everything will be okay until.....
We forgot something and we have to go all the way to get it,
Someone in line had no money,
Another someone wants to jump the queue,
A little boy sreaming his head off.....


How we tahan and trod along .Then it comes to our turn at the check out counter and ABRACADABRA !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We are done

Time to get home . On the way , we stop for lunch and this is the time when my mum will start to count the stairs to our appartment.That is when I go .. OH NO !!! Because we have to carry two bags each up .


So up we went , till this jiran of us saw us struggling ,and she just took the two bags like as if it weighs like nothing and up she went to the 4th floor!!!!

Thank you and terima kasih kerana menolong .She actually does'nt mind helping us because her cats will always sleep at our front door and the next morning , dad will carry it downstairs for her .....

The Best Deal

Danish .
Highly intelligent.
Smart / Smary pants of the class.
Language , vocab and writing skills - Excellent .
Likes to talk , make sense of everything and very good in solving class politics.
He's the guy that everyone goes to .


Today , as I sat thinking about exams , I got up and told my class that instead of recapping all the time , we were going to colour all of the flags in the Cultural book . They had about two pages to colour.As I was rambling along and on and on I went, the kids got excited because , no recapping today .


With everything being said and done ,we all heard an important announcement from Danish .

Danish : Everyone you can use my colours to colour your flags , even the the girls.

Wow !I thought to myself so generous . Nice boy . Then there was more ..

Danish : I am willing to charge you all Rm 15.00 to use my colours . That is the
best discount that I can offer .

I wanted to laugh actually . Business deals at a very young age !!!!!

Merajuk 101

After 5 long months , today was the first day Nilly merajuk .. Why ? It was all because of me . She is like a lost puppy. Everywhere I go , she will be right behind me .
I do not know from where she gets her energy . She never feels tired . Words and more words are constantly coming out of her mouth .... words of songs .. wisdom ? That is another question .



So anyway , I have been observeing her , it all stared after the sports day . Today is the fourth day ... no .. can't be . Third day because Monday was a holiday . Each time , when I go out to attend to a parent , she'd follow along .. and when everything is over , I noticed that she would sing the Ngaraku and then recite the Rukunegara . Without fail for three days .

She invites other friends along too . what I did today was so horrible to her that whatever browine points that I earned from her ,it all went in to the drain .. I locked her out ...



Me : Tmk , someone merajuk today .
Tmk: Who?
ME : NIlly .

Tmk:Okay , teacher Audra , I will ask NIlly what happened .
Tmk: NIlly what happened ? Come , tell me so then I can go and scold the teacher who
scolded you .

Tmk : Who made you merajuk ?
NIlly with tears in her eyes pointed at me .

I was observing the whole time , to tell you the truth she looked cute !!! I don't know what Tmk told her , so she went to sit in a corner .


Me : Nilly , come here please .

She refused .

Me: Girls , bring Nilly to me .


Still merajuk , so no choice , I have to pujuk her , I called her and she came over . She sat on my lap and I told her why I did what I did to her .. Yes , she was crying and Pras took her phone and took a shot of us . Don't know if it will be posted onto face book .


By the way, Nilly is still friends with me .

My Rosary

It's beautiful . I cannot imagine that I could do it . The beads are so nice .It feels right in my hands . I admire my handy work almose everyday . I am learning and thanks to G , my hobby is taking shape . Yes , we are so excited and we have planned to meet up once my rosary is done .


Right now, I have finished the first decade and moving on into the second one .it's not always that I do it , I take a few days off and then I continue . You may ask why , because I am running out of eyepins and jumprings so I need to tread on very carefully .


I want this to be perfect. As usual , I have already placed my orders for more beads , eyepins and jumprings though I also may want to make necklesses and ear rings .. but for now those have to wait ..


I may make a trip tp Daiso to see what they have . This tip , I picked up from G !!!
Just to window shop , no need to buy !!!


I am making good progress .. if you look closely , it's as good as what you buy ... I am waiting for the rosary to be completed but I am taking my time and that is good .

Memories

It all started because of TMK ... she la was the culprit .. Talking and talking non stop, I thought about my ex kindy . How it was when I was there and then .. we had to go and talk about this kindy and that .. Okay never mind , plus my friend Corina posted some shots from St Ronan's , I got all worked up ... According to TMK , it's a sign of jealousy of wanting it all .... But we can't , can we ?



By looking at the shots .. just the shots .. got me going .. what if .... and I dwelt into this ridicoulously sandy bottomless pit. The light at the tunnel is way too far .


Now , how do I get out of this mess ? Easy , stop thinking about all of those memories and move along ... So starting today anything to do with memories , I am so out of here .

Memories are good actually . It's where you only take the good ones with you .As we all know memories makes good stories to tell .... when you're grey and old .

All the same I will never forget ... ever .

Shu Yen

Very brilliant , confident and reads like a train . some kids cannot keep up with her because of her speed .

She retains every detail very well and only needs to be taught once . Nilly loves her to bits however , shu Yen cannot stand Lynus .. It's cute .. You see Shu Yen knows what I go through to teach some of her friends ... she knows it when I am under pressure and this is what she tells me .

Shu Yen : Teacher , I go and teach Lynus okay ?
Me : Are you sure ?
Shu Yen : I can teacher .


We are doing math addition within 50 .
She goes to Lynus .

Shu Yen : Come, Lynus I teach you , teacher said can.
Lynus : Ha , can ah ?
Shu yen : Yes la , people say can somemore want to ask .


Okay that is really fine with me . I continue to observe them .

Shu Yen : Lynus this one wrong .
Lynus : Ha , rub ah ?
Shu Yen : Ya lo . Aiyo .
Shu Yen :How many 20 plus 40 ?
Lynus :I don't know wo .
Shu Yen :( Her voice gets loud ) How many times teacher Audra tell you tens and ones
which first , now write here.
Lynus :Ha , here ah .
Shu Yen :Aiyo ya la here now write here , hereeeeee.... six , six .

It's a typical day for me and by the way Shu Yen's mum is a primary school teacher so maybe that is why she sounds the way she does .. but I intervene and get poor Lynus out of her clucthes and he smiles on .. his smile means one thing ... "Phew what a relief , teacher Audra saved me !!