Victory Speech

I never expect to loose . Even when I am the underdog . I still prepare a victory speech . Well that speech was so long undone ... It's like when you come undone and who do you love ? God . Why ? Because He is an amazing God that's why . As I stood in the concert hall for one last time , I summed up everything in two syllabus with six letters in it .. THE END. Now, I could leave the word THE END as the end to this post . But let me tell you something , It did not end for me . It will be a new beginning for me . Now my life begins as the same as it would and it's great . So how does one trace little foot steps along the way ? She goes shopping tomorrow , that's how . I mean you've got to get your life on track after what has taken place and it's all about organizing and stepping out into a ray of sunshine . For some , they may have won the victory speech but I for one , won a whole lot more . I am sure I can tell. Because each passing day , I wake up happy and I know that someday , someone's gonna come out and tell me , 'Hey , Audra , you know what , you're amazing'. That , I guess I am ..

Take A BOw

Well having said that all I have to , I took a last bow in my classroom yesterday minus the kids . I looked at my class for one last time . Thinking of all the fun and memories that I had with my students . I looked at my charts hanging on the wall and thought how over the years , we struggled through , to develop a million kids when I was there . The walls were sad and everything seemed quiet . I looked at the things in my classroom . This is it, the final curtain has come down . No more standing in the spot light . It was time that someone else took the spot . My time is done and over with . I talked to all the tables and chairs and told them that how much I would miss them . How they kept my students safe as they sat on them . I looked and I really looked . To my pencils and erasers , you have been used . For every perfect reason . I thanked the heavenly angels for keeping each of my student safe as we journeyed to the zoo, park , and many other wonderful places that we went to . I took a bow once again and thought of the mornings spent with laughter and joy. I thanked the doors for keeping danger away and for keeping us warm in our classrooms. As I turned to leave ,I said a small prayer , a prayer of thanks . I thanked the heavenly Father who gave us wisdom and the joy of children. All is quiet now .. all tired out . No more laughter and smiles . But as always may all the children of the world be blessed . The show is over say goodbye ............

Trying and still trying to

The past few weeks has been a breeze . I can feel the Christmas wind in my hair and I thought to myself how wonderful it was to feel something special . I had time to soul search myself and for that I am very proud of the fact that I made a small difference in my life . Not for others but for me this time around . I have been quiet for awhile and even at work too . Perhaps, I want to absorb every minute details that I can feast my eyes upon . My students take first place .How hard they have worked to come this far and being patient with me as their teacher . I have not said goodbye to them but in my heart, I did . To me , children would always have a special meaning in my life and in a few days time this chapter would be closed . I want it to be perfect but alas , in life , we can't have perfection. I spend time in school , keeping my head in the game and keeping myself busy . I do take time off and just stare into space at times . However some has even mentioned that I am not with them . Well , I guess everyone is a mind reader when it comes to human emotions . Everyone , except for you . Having waiting for that moment to arrive , has been a spiritual journey. I decided to take it easy , one at a time . For now , words have been said , some home truths had hit home as well, as you say , a direct hit . All I can do is hope and pray for a better future for everyone . With that , I take off my hat to all of those people , who have journeyed a long journey , to get where they are today, for those who never gave up , to those who fought for what they believed in and to those who made everyone smile .

Farewell

I still have about 2 weeks till the end of the month . However , as usual , I plod along till my time ends . Today was special because my teachers organized a farewell do for me . I never thought that , there would be one for me because I usually don't need one . I felt that I did not have to have one actually . Its because I am a simple person with a simple nature .... I guess. But the gesture was well meant and I truly was happy about it . Food was good and everyone was in good spirits .. Though , some were misty eyed . Everything good must come to an end . Anything that we do , we do it to the best of our ability . I was sad .. to say good bye . I have done what I could for the school and I tried my best . I wish my teachers all the best and wish them well too . Along the way , I have met many wonderful teachers , however this batch of teachers were the best . Being matured , we complimented each other and how we supported each other . Not only we were friends , we became a huge family with a whole lot of sisters in it !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Not a day goes by that we do now wish each other with a kind word. I guess , no more nasi lemak session with the ladies and our KFC sessions are out as well but we could always meet up for a drink . It finally hit home that I am no longer a teacher .. no more holidays , sports or concert . They were all good memories , that I treasure ... it will always be and forever that I am a teacher and there is no denying it . The next chapter would be a better one for me ...

Sleeping Beauty

Today was my appointment day with the hospital . I went because I need a closure .. I had to be sure 100% so that was why I went . The sleep test was very good .. You may be wondering , what is a sleep test all about . It's a test that I need to do , to see if i snored , oxygen intake , to see if I slept without breathing and so .. forth and so forth ... Will not tell too much about the test . When I got in the doctor's office , ( my dad came along) I gave him my test results . He took it and read it .. After 10 mins , he turned around and told me that , the report was one of the most excellent report with only Level 2 .. meaning I do not have go go in for the op to remove my tonsils . it would take Level 5 and above to get it removed . I was overjoyed , happy .He removed me from the list .. what list you ask .. no need to do the op . No medication . With that , he told me that is was my stress level that was the cause of it. Better still , since I will be moving on , onto a new job , I hope that my tonsils will be pleased . No talking needed . Only speak when you are spoken to !!!! To celebrate , I will be making an apple crumble pie ....on Saturday !!! Yums ...

first it fits and then it does'nt

I was thinking to myself lately and silently if you may ..... how everything seems to fit into place . I told myself that if I ever found myself wondering if my life fits into what ever that I hoped for , I would give myself a pinch !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Sometimes you may think if it was just a dream and then , that when you wake up , it all disappears . But it does not , and I am glad . Plain and simple . So what is the next chapter of my life ? Good question but I will not answer . However , I will just leave it for now and embrace each day as beautifully as I can . With hope in my heart , everything that I wish for, will become fit ( like a dress ) and I wait in glee as I journey with loads of love around me .. speaking of dresses , I saw one at Jaya Jusco .. simple cut and it has my name on it ... by the way it was screaming out for me ....!!!

with thanks and much love ..

I think this should be quite safe ......... I would like to thank all of my teachers for a wonderful job , its the everyday stuff that they do and for that I am truly greatful. As such , with all that has taken place and the news that I would be leaving my teachers in 3 weeks time , I think back on my humble beginnings as a teacher . How I managed through and faced every day head on ... From the unknown to the known . I remember going into my headmistress office , and each time that phrase catches my eye . At first I did not seem to understand what it meant , but over the years , it has played a part of who I am . MY journey as a teacher , was a very simple one . I remember getting my first class . It happened to be the slowest class . Right from the beginning , I was warned that my students were slow in everything that they did . I refused to see them as slow . I turned the tables around . I organized games , storytelling , quizzes the works and before the 6th month was up , my students were beaming with confidence . Confidence was the reason that I pushed harder to become a better teacher . Not the best but better . Along the way , I met many parents who were pleased as to how far their kids had improved . I gave hope to those who never believed in them . It was good . A very good feeling . A few years down , I had the pleasure of working with down syndrome children , autistic children , hyper active children and many more , These kids has taught me a lot . How to embrace life beautifully no matter what . I embrace their smiles , their hugs and all the little things that they say to me . It matters not how small the gesture is . It was never a dull moment when I am with my students. ... suddenly ..you grow up and wise up . Twenty years down the lane, I have come a long way. I have decided .. that I need a change in my life . I do not think that I will forget the years I spent teaching but life goes on . It's time to learn and take things as they are . My life as a kindergarten teacher will be coming to an end .... it is time for me to hang up my teaching cap.

ever you wonder

have you ever wondered that after all this time , that you just needed that one chance to change your life ? and how at that moment , you did not have all the answers and you just upped yourself and told yourself that you would throw everything out of the window . all u could ever think of , is finding that inner peace or rather that one thing that sums up your entire life . i mean , how you do it ? and you say , i have had enough of it and i want out ? is it too late to do it ? well , it could be a yes or a no or perhaps both . i just changed my tittle blog and i don't bother if anyone does not read it .. to say the least , my life is going to be one huge change and there is a lot ... i mean like a gazillion . see 20 years back down the lane , i was this boring person , i followed all the rules , went to work , work i did , came home , talked , spent time watching the tele and that was it . i did not go out clubbing , just stayed at home .. holidays were minimal and i did not bother very much . i did all of the above and one day i just woke up ..... 20 years too late ? well , late is never too late right ? in life everything has its process . so here i am 20 years on and i got to thinking .. what did i really achieve in life ? if i were to say nothing much , i'd be lying and you know it !!!!!! so in all fairness to myself , i would say i achieved a lot . but what if i told you that i am going to make another change in my life and step out of my comfort zone ? first things first ,it would be like , you had this long hair kinda style for many years and now you want a pixie haircut .. its like saying , that's it, no more coffee for you just water !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! or better still it would be like asking your golden retriever to go be a poodle !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! go figure . so i am the pilot of my life and i steer my life .. any suggestions or ideas , please take a back seat !!!!!!!!!!!! now , buckle up cos it's gonna be one hell of a ride