Now I know that I have been loved and I also know that after six months I finally got it .. and how many times have I nodded my head to say " I GET IT" ?
Countless of times , I lost count myself . It seems that on that fateful day I went to another school to get something .... and it was there , that I got my answer . My answer was simply .... "DON'T GIVE UP , YOU CAN DO IT" . I may have got it then .
Through and through, I did not understand because my mind refuse to understand it . Why ? I mean why must it be so ?
I feel nice now knowing that there are people who are out there to help me and not to forget that there are people out there who are out to get me .
Okay , I am being silly again .. whatever it is ... I know I am loved and I wait for swords to be put down and we we live as one .
Sunday, June 27, 2010
Sunday, June 20, 2010
Change
Change of hairstyle , change of food intake , change of weather you name it and most of us are afraid of change . Namely ME !! Why ? Because I have lived in a comfort zone and too afraid to step out of it ...
Someone once asked me to step out from my comfort zone and I never knew that I was in a COMFORT ZONE ....I thought that since everything was going on like clock work in my everyday life , I guess that was pretty normal .
So how am I going to take that step for a better change in my life?
I could take baby steps which is not that hard , intial steps , will be a bit tough..
... Okay I have decided that starting tomorrow I will seize the day as it comes, not worry about anything , be the first to blow bubbles under water with my eyes open , get married and have kids and throw evvery caution to the wind and have a meaningful live ahead .... and finally learn how to swim !!!
Sounds easy enough . Let's see how I fair .....
Someone once asked me to step out from my comfort zone and I never knew that I was in a COMFORT ZONE ....I thought that since everything was going on like clock work in my everyday life , I guess that was pretty normal .
So how am I going to take that step for a better change in my life?
I could take baby steps which is not that hard , intial steps , will be a bit tough..
... Okay I have decided that starting tomorrow I will seize the day as it comes, not worry about anything , be the first to blow bubbles under water with my eyes open , get married and have kids and throw evvery caution to the wind and have a meaningful live ahead .... and finally learn how to swim !!!
Sounds easy enough . Let's see how I fair .....
Friday, June 18, 2010
Where ... ?
I tried to find you but I just don't see you around,hardly a word or a call and everything is silent.My heart breaks and yearn and yet you're too far away from me . Is anything wrong ? Or perhaps I may have said too much .
Where................?
I don't feel nice and my heart is yearning for a friend to talk to . Maybe someday we will both come to realise that we were meant to be togahter .
Where.............?
For now everything seems fine . I just wished that things were different . I miss your chatter and laughter .We have grown apart .
Where............?
Maybe this is not the right time , so when will it be ? Don' stay away for too long.
Where............?
Where................?
I don't feel nice and my heart is yearning for a friend to talk to . Maybe someday we will both come to realise that we were meant to be togahter .
Where.............?
For now everything seems fine . I just wished that things were different . I miss your chatter and laughter .We have grown apart .
Where............?
Maybe this is not the right time , so when will it be ? Don' stay away for too long.
Where............?
Choose , choosed , chosen
Call it what you want and I am sure that each one of us were given the gift to choose . To choose from right and wrong and know that whatever the choices that we have made , there is no room for regrets .
For some , a choice is something like A , B or a C the list goes on . One thing for sure that every one of us deserves to choose.SO what is your choice? Having to stand at the corner while everyone steam rolls you or stand up for what you believe in and make that right choice?
So what is the difference between choosing and speaking up ?
For some , a choice is something like A , B or a C the list goes on . One thing for sure that every one of us deserves to choose.SO what is your choice? Having to stand at the corner while everyone steam rolls you or stand up for what you believe in and make that right choice?
So what is the difference between choosing and speaking up ?
Thursday, June 17, 2010
Lean On Me
'..... the children fail because of their teacher '
Now, as we all know we need someone to lean on . Yesterday we saw a movie ,Lean On Me and Morgan Freeman acted as the no nonsense principal of the school . Strict to the core and when he spoke , no one spoke .. but one thing that caught my attention that , the teachers , no matter what , never gave up on ther students ... and I for one , felt like hugging all of them.
The show moves along and focus on four students,they skipped class,bullied everyone that got in their way .In one scene , shows the four students being questioned by the principal and the first thing he did was to get them to sing the school song.He waited .... and they sang acapella right infront of him .. he was amazed and so were we .
Lean On Me means to lean on someone when you need a shoulder... and when you're not strong .. Lean On Me means that no matter what, we will catch you when you fall.
Now, as we all know we need someone to lean on . Yesterday we saw a movie ,Lean On Me and Morgan Freeman acted as the no nonsense principal of the school . Strict to the core and when he spoke , no one spoke .. but one thing that caught my attention that , the teachers , no matter what , never gave up on ther students ... and I for one , felt like hugging all of them.
The show moves along and focus on four students,they skipped class,bullied everyone that got in their way .In one scene , shows the four students being questioned by the principal and the first thing he did was to get them to sing the school song.He waited .... and they sang acapella right infront of him .. he was amazed and so were we .
Lean On Me means to lean on someone when you need a shoulder... and when you're not strong .. Lean On Me means that no matter what, we will catch you when you fall.
Monday, June 14, 2010
'Cut , it's a wrap!!!!!!!!
During my haydays as an actress ... ahem!!!!!!!! Yes , I am an actor , well not in that sense ,not the pro type. I was choosen to act in the Christmas Peagent Play . I remember it so well . I mean ,I went through training just like everyone else .
My first role ; the inkeeper's wife . it was such a blast that I could not imagine , I went up on stage confidently and said my lines . I was in the most colourful garment and I felt important .We had special seats then , and we practiced hard . Then , a group of us went to Sri Cahaya for a voice over session .See how serious we were back then .
I took the role seriously even it meant that I have only 3 lines to say . I mean the inkeeper's wife . She had a standard to upkeep .
The day we were to perform, the church was packed .We were not nervous at all.
The second stint came about, when I was choosen to play a wife ... modern day kinda Peagent Play . Thinking back , I just don't know how I got up there on that stage . I am not a born performer but you could say that I enjoy doing many things . Perhaps I should add this to my resume .
I had the best times when I was up on stage . Power was mine and I had it all.The curtains are closed now and we make way for new talents. The show will live and go on ...
My first role ; the inkeeper's wife . it was such a blast that I could not imagine , I went up on stage confidently and said my lines . I was in the most colourful garment and I felt important .We had special seats then , and we practiced hard . Then , a group of us went to Sri Cahaya for a voice over session .See how serious we were back then .
I took the role seriously even it meant that I have only 3 lines to say . I mean the inkeeper's wife . She had a standard to upkeep .
The day we were to perform, the church was packed .We were not nervous at all.
The second stint came about, when I was choosen to play a wife ... modern day kinda Peagent Play . Thinking back , I just don't know how I got up there on that stage . I am not a born performer but you could say that I enjoy doing many things . Perhaps I should add this to my resume .
I had the best times when I was up on stage . Power was mine and I had it all.The curtains are closed now and we make way for new talents. The show will live and go on ...
Sunday, June 13, 2010
Sounds
The only sound I can hear right now is the kakak sweeping our block .Oh , and also a baby calling for his mother ... plus my mum talking and watching hindi series at the same time. I can also hear our visitor's voice hmmmmmm .....
Those are just some of the sounds and regular sounds that I hear . I hate ghostly sounds and screams . I would never watch a horror movie without some company around me .It's like I wanna see it and at the same time I am afraid. I would grab the nearest throw pillow and cover my ears and still watch the movie, with my eyes wide open !!!!!
But then again , having done all this, I could still get a shock , my heart rate beating so fast and all. Seriously , if you're planning on inviting me for a movie make sure it's a comedy or action .Anything to do with horror movies forget it .
I remember one time when we were staying in Brunei . My parents came down for a wedding in K.L. My sister wanted to watch a horror movie so she told me not to worry . That night , after the movie , I could not sleep at all . I kept thinking about the ghost with the long hair . I did not sleep the whole night . I left the lits on . I still could not sleep . I prayed and even said my rosary .
The next day , that's it .. no more horror movies for me .
Those are just some of the sounds and regular sounds that I hear . I hate ghostly sounds and screams . I would never watch a horror movie without some company around me .It's like I wanna see it and at the same time I am afraid. I would grab the nearest throw pillow and cover my ears and still watch the movie, with my eyes wide open !!!!!
But then again , having done all this, I could still get a shock , my heart rate beating so fast and all. Seriously , if you're planning on inviting me for a movie make sure it's a comedy or action .Anything to do with horror movies forget it .
I remember one time when we were staying in Brunei . My parents came down for a wedding in K.L. My sister wanted to watch a horror movie so she told me not to worry . That night , after the movie , I could not sleep at all . I kept thinking about the ghost with the long hair . I did not sleep the whole night . I left the lits on . I still could not sleep . I prayed and even said my rosary .
The next day , that's it .. no more horror movies for me .
wednesday
Yup, just like in the movie The Addams Family . They named their daughter Wednesday . For me Wednesday will be a new day for me . It is the day that I get to go over to G's house and show her my rosary and also it would be the day where I finally get my orders .. to continue working on my rosary ..... I am feeling really bored so now by next week I can and will complete my first rosary ..
I am excited and I will be making two more and once I have run out crosses , it's time to hit the store in church to see it they have any more stocks. It has been awhile and this is because I am waiting for more supplies.
So I am waiting for next week to come but I am not prepared to go to work . See how lazy I am !!!!!! Rosary aside , all good things will come to an end .. today is Monday so I will just tread the day slowly..
Cheers everyone , here is a good week ahead !!!
I am excited and I will be making two more and once I have run out crosses , it's time to hit the store in church to see it they have any more stocks. It has been awhile and this is because I am waiting for more supplies.
So I am waiting for next week to come but I am not prepared to go to work . See how lazy I am !!!!!! Rosary aside , all good things will come to an end .. today is Monday so I will just tread the day slowly..
Cheers everyone , here is a good week ahead !!!
Once Upon A TIme
Once upon a time , there was a little boy who lived close by to a church with his family. Being as little as he was , you could say that he was a little nosey boy . With Christmas just a few days away,his mother would remind him that Jesus would be born soon.
....and because of this, the town lords and ladies has decided to invite everyone in the town to go and visit Jesus . They would each present Jesus with a gift.Everyone was so excited , little children marvelled at the thought and some spent endless nights thinking about the birth of Jesus.
The next day , the little boy went to school . The teacher asked each child what would thier gift be. The little boy say quietly . Most of his friends had already planned what to give to Jesus .
Sadly , he stood up and told his teacher that he had nothing to give and that his family was poor.
With a heavy heart , he walked home. On the way home he met a nun.She asked him why he was sad. The litle boy told the nun that he could not afford to give Jesus a present.
The nun took him by the hand and brought him into an enchanted garden. In it , there were flowers of every kind . He looked all around the garden and his eyes fell onto a bouquet of red flowers.
The little boy said that he would like to give the flowers to Jesus.
As he was about to go home , the nun told the little boy that those flowers that he wished to give to Jesus had no name . The little boy told the nun that he would come up with a name for them.
News spread the next day that Jesus had been born and everyone travelled to see the baby ,each family bringing a gift. The little boy ran to the enchanted garden , gathered up the flowers and went to see baby Jesus .
He presented the flowers to babay Jesus. Mother mary was so happy and she asked the little boy where got them. Proudly the little boy told her that he got them from an enchanted garden and they were called The Flowers of The Infant Jesus .
....and because of this, the town lords and ladies has decided to invite everyone in the town to go and visit Jesus . They would each present Jesus with a gift.Everyone was so excited , little children marvelled at the thought and some spent endless nights thinking about the birth of Jesus.
The next day , the little boy went to school . The teacher asked each child what would thier gift be. The little boy say quietly . Most of his friends had already planned what to give to Jesus .
Sadly , he stood up and told his teacher that he had nothing to give and that his family was poor.
With a heavy heart , he walked home. On the way home he met a nun.She asked him why he was sad. The litle boy told the nun that he could not afford to give Jesus a present.
The nun took him by the hand and brought him into an enchanted garden. In it , there were flowers of every kind . He looked all around the garden and his eyes fell onto a bouquet of red flowers.
The little boy said that he would like to give the flowers to Jesus.
As he was about to go home , the nun told the little boy that those flowers that he wished to give to Jesus had no name . The little boy told the nun that he would come up with a name for them.
News spread the next day that Jesus had been born and everyone travelled to see the baby ,each family bringing a gift. The little boy ran to the enchanted garden , gathered up the flowers and went to see baby Jesus .
He presented the flowers to babay Jesus. Mother mary was so happy and she asked the little boy where got them. Proudly the little boy told her that he got them from an enchanted garden and they were called The Flowers of The Infant Jesus .
Saturday, June 12, 2010
scrap and forget it
As I was mumbling to myself......, no I am not crazy .... this happened after I became the principal of my school .Wheather I am in the room , or anywhere that I happen to be , I find myself mumbling and talking to myself . I just don't know how this came about .My teachers have to be very careful because they certainly have no idea when they are spoken to.
I find this rather amusing .I could forget myself and just carry on talking like as if I am talking to a person. Some would ask me first , if I was talking to myself.I find this helps in situations, when I need an answer fast and pronto.
My students are amazed with my god given talent that is talking to myself. Students have asked me often enough and I would just tell them that I am talking to a spirit ... wooooo !!!! woooooo !!!
Once when I was talking to myself my student asked me if I was unwell and she took my tempreture !!!
This talking business has got the others wondering if I am fit for the job!!!
Well, it's just scarps !!!!!
I find this rather amusing .I could forget myself and just carry on talking like as if I am talking to a person. Some would ask me first , if I was talking to myself.I find this helps in situations, when I need an answer fast and pronto.
My students are amazed with my god given talent that is talking to myself. Students have asked me often enough and I would just tell them that I am talking to a spirit ... wooooo !!!! woooooo !!!
Once when I was talking to myself my student asked me if I was unwell and she took my tempreture !!!
This talking business has got the others wondering if I am fit for the job!!!
Well, it's just scarps !!!!!
I was Not Supposed to...
I was not supposed to but I went ;
I promised that I would be back;
It took a few seconds and I was lost.
I was not supposed to;
I should have stayed with the crowed but...
... I went what could have happened ?
I was not supposed to and I went.
I was not supposed to;
I did not come home;
I was thrown away in an endless pit;
No one came for me.
I was not supposed to;
I tried ,now no one will ever know.
I promised that I would be back;
It took a few seconds and I was lost.
I was not supposed to;
I should have stayed with the crowed but...
... I went what could have happened ?
I was not supposed to and I went.
I was not supposed to;
I did not come home;
I was thrown away in an endless pit;
No one came for me.
I was not supposed to;
I tried ,now no one will ever know.
Friday, June 11, 2010
One week .... ago
When it was time for the semester break,I was excited not that I could sit and watch the world cup . It's not my cup of tea but maybe if .. just if there were a few cute guys around me, I might consider watching it !!!!
So, back to why I am so excited for the semester break,was because all of us have been working non stop and we were just counting the days where we could just stay at home and relax and yes , go out with friends too.The first few days was ok for me .I slept , ate , went out a bit and I was telling my parents just how lucky I am to have this break.
TOday is Saturday and I am feeling bored already. We can never be happy with what we have right? But then again ,when I go back to work, I will be complaining about how tired I am and I just wish that I had a break .... and I just had a break. Humans are never satisfired no wonder GOD does not want to come down !!!!!
Let's talk about today - Saturday .. take a short nap , wake up shower , blow dry hair...wait , wait ,wait ... Okay time to change and this is where I start to whine and say that I have absolutely nothing to wear !!!!!!!!!!!!!
Done with the clothes , and besides God does not care what you wear as long as you have a good heart.
Then............. time to put on some make up.... minimal is the key word.Comb my hair , same style - Ponytail 101 .Spray some perfume and I am done .With one quick look in the mirror , I am good to go...
So, back to why I am so excited for the semester break,was because all of us have been working non stop and we were just counting the days where we could just stay at home and relax and yes , go out with friends too.The first few days was ok for me .I slept , ate , went out a bit and I was telling my parents just how lucky I am to have this break.
TOday is Saturday and I am feeling bored already. We can never be happy with what we have right? But then again ,when I go back to work, I will be complaining about how tired I am and I just wish that I had a break .... and I just had a break. Humans are never satisfired no wonder GOD does not want to come down !!!!!
Let's talk about today - Saturday .. take a short nap , wake up shower , blow dry hair...wait , wait ,wait ... Okay time to change and this is where I start to whine and say that I have absolutely nothing to wear !!!!!!!!!!!!!
Done with the clothes , and besides God does not care what you wear as long as you have a good heart.
Then............. time to put on some make up.... minimal is the key word.Comb my hair , same style - Ponytail 101 .Spray some perfume and I am done .With one quick look in the mirror , I am good to go...
Out HE Came
Out HE came and it was dark;
And then there was light which made HIM glad;
Out He came and the sun shone;
For a new day has begun.
Out HE came and dwelled into our hearts;
And as He grew ,HIS spirit rested over us;
Out HE came and lived among HIS people;
For HOPE is the beginning.
Out HE came and sat in the temple;
Scholars were amazed by what they heard;
Who could this be?
The SAVIOUR who is and will save us.
Out HE came and all walked with him;
For LOVE us was all HE did;
Up and down the hill, with the cross on HIS back , HE loved us all.
Out HE came and hung high above;
HE hung high because of HIS love for us;
At last, HE looked to the heavens and closed HIS eyes.
And then there was light which made HIM glad;
Out He came and the sun shone;
For a new day has begun.
Out HE came and dwelled into our hearts;
And as He grew ,HIS spirit rested over us;
Out HE came and lived among HIS people;
For HOPE is the beginning.
Out HE came and sat in the temple;
Scholars were amazed by what they heard;
Who could this be?
The SAVIOUR who is and will save us.
Out HE came and all walked with him;
For LOVE us was all HE did;
Up and down the hill, with the cross on HIS back , HE loved us all.
Out HE came and hung high above;
HE hung high because of HIS love for us;
At last, HE looked to the heavens and closed HIS eyes.
Thursday, June 10, 2010
Help !! I am drowning
I have decided to go for swimming lessons and I managed to coax a few of my friends to join in this fun filled activity .We are very excited about it and we even found the IT swimming suit. But for now the standard frog suit will just have to do . Slow and steady we will swim . The reason we are going for swimming is according to my friend , who has done some research says ,that there would be a lot of cute men and the coach is something too !!!!!!
No, the real reason behind all of this is , we want to learn swimming as it is one of the most relaxing activity/sport , call it whatever you like .The other reason is everyone I practically know , knows how to swim and even if I followed them to the pool, I would just sit ........ at the baby pool !!! And also besides that, only the first quarter of my feet goes in . Once again I would start to envy those who could swim . Enough is enough it's high time that I took the tides , waves and all...
No, the real reason behind all of this is , we want to learn swimming as it is one of the most relaxing activity/sport , call it whatever you like .The other reason is everyone I practically know , knows how to swim and even if I followed them to the pool, I would just sit ........ at the baby pool !!! And also besides that, only the first quarter of my feet goes in . Once again I would start to envy those who could swim . Enough is enough it's high time that I took the tides , waves and all...
Monday, June 7, 2010
Aunty Janet Leoni And Aunty Violet
What does this two ladies have in common;
Very friendly,
prayerfull
strong willed
... and they were best of friends and still are up in heaven.
Let's start with aunt Janet . Aunt janet passed away peacefully in February the 22 nd if I am not mistaken. She was a nice lady . She never forgot our birthdays and one time when I was about to go to work , the phone rang . I remember, it was 6.30 am. My mum picked up the phone and it was Aunt Janet , wishing my mum happy birthday , mum and dad again for thier anniversary and me my birthday . She never failed to touch our hearts on our birthdays.
Then one day , my mum receives a call from her and she wants to know if my mum knew an oldie hit .. it was those one hit wonder tunes and the next thing we knew , they were singing to each other over the phone ... hmm ... she was trully blessed and loved by everyone who knew her .... on the day she passed on , she looked so peaceful. Before she passed away , her dear son told her this ,'Don't worry about me , go if you must'. To everyone , big or small it,they knew her as Nanny . it will always be nanny ...
Aunty Violet -- Dear Aunt Violet were opposite neighbors with Aunt Janet . They became friends and Aunt Violet would always visit her . They would talk and talk . Aunty Violet was a strong willed person and she kept her family together and she did it !! Aunty Violet may be tough but she is a soft spoken person by nature . Each time we would take her to church and rosary sessions.Her grandchildren loved her very much .
She passed on the 1st of June . We were saddened by the news but let's put it this way, she is in a happier place. I remember that she would always share what she has with others and those are the values that she holds very dear . She would occasionally call my mum for a chat and we do try to visit her when we can . The last visit was last year , it was some where around Christmas. We talked , made her laugh .
Her daughter told me that her mother had to go because her husband Michael is calling for her. Uncle Michael is another story all togehter and I just want to say that it has been an honor knowing fine people like them . It was truuly a pleasure being friends with them... may their souls rest in peace .
Very friendly,
prayerfull
strong willed
... and they were best of friends and still are up in heaven.
Let's start with aunt Janet . Aunt janet passed away peacefully in February the 22 nd if I am not mistaken. She was a nice lady . She never forgot our birthdays and one time when I was about to go to work , the phone rang . I remember, it was 6.30 am. My mum picked up the phone and it was Aunt Janet , wishing my mum happy birthday , mum and dad again for thier anniversary and me my birthday . She never failed to touch our hearts on our birthdays.
Then one day , my mum receives a call from her and she wants to know if my mum knew an oldie hit .. it was those one hit wonder tunes and the next thing we knew , they were singing to each other over the phone ... hmm ... she was trully blessed and loved by everyone who knew her .... on the day she passed on , she looked so peaceful. Before she passed away , her dear son told her this ,'Don't worry about me , go if you must'. To everyone , big or small it,they knew her as Nanny . it will always be nanny ...
Aunty Violet -- Dear Aunt Violet were opposite neighbors with Aunt Janet . They became friends and Aunt Violet would always visit her . They would talk and talk . Aunty Violet was a strong willed person and she kept her family together and she did it !! Aunty Violet may be tough but she is a soft spoken person by nature . Each time we would take her to church and rosary sessions.Her grandchildren loved her very much .
She passed on the 1st of June . We were saddened by the news but let's put it this way, she is in a happier place. I remember that she would always share what she has with others and those are the values that she holds very dear . She would occasionally call my mum for a chat and we do try to visit her when we can . The last visit was last year , it was some where around Christmas. We talked , made her laugh .
Her daughter told me that her mother had to go because her husband Michael is calling for her. Uncle Michael is another story all togehter and I just want to say that it has been an honor knowing fine people like them . It was truuly a pleasure being friends with them... may their souls rest in peace .
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